It's late night and you start thinking how everything that you are is influenced by other people, your choices, decisions, career and now you don't know yourself. And you don't know how to take control of it all. 

You take control of it by coming back to yourself. Not easy i know. Not saying it's easy....but it's possible

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Depression

Please guys help me!!
My boyfriend's birthday is next month and I want to make it the most memorable one...any ideas??
I am looking for something creative...it is long distance but we will meet on his birthday...so maybe I can send him daily hints to figure out something or reminders in a unique way?
Also any ideas for gifts?

Boyfriend

People not knowing how to communicate always see it as trying to argue

Hi, i needed someone to talk to and share what i am feeling without revealing my identity and not definitely being judged. Hope i Have doing a right form.
I am a woman aged 30 married 7 years back. I love my husband. I guess i still do. I am a normal woman i eat normal food and i have normal hormones like any other. But my husband is not like other men. Within first few days of marriage i understood that he s not much interested in romance. But he was being involved.
Sex between us gradually reduced to once a month or only when i ask for it. After a year of marriage he suddenly stoped responding. I decided to wait and see if he will show interest. Months passed, years passed. I was getting mad. I used to cry and sleep most of the night. Fight with him. He knew what exactly i was thinking but he decided to keep quite.
But other than that we were happy couple. Going out, movies, eqt out, pub and all… everything was perfectly normal but that one thing. But sometimes whenever i used to go deep thinking i was getting mad. After 3 years i started talking openly and asked him to get himself checked. Coz there was pressure from family to have a baby and even i wanted a child.
After multiple fights and crying, after our 4th wedding anniversary he finally said he s fine but he was shy to begin. So i helped him feel better and we had sex…!! Life wasn’t any better. His interest level was low only. After couple of months i got pregnant and boom. We are strangers on bed again. I gave birth, baby is 2 years old. And yet we are strangers on bed and extremely happy couples in front of others. And roll models to some too… now i think that he s never going to change and either i have to choose this life or leave him giving my child a different life when there is no father. Which i can’t imagine of. I want my baby to have a normal happy family. But what should i do. Whenever everyone says romantic couple, i get a sharp pain in my heart.
He loves me. He s not gay nor having any affair. He know he has problem. Every month i fight he accepts and he asks for time to change. And he ll be the same person from the next day. He s a gentleman. He respects everyone and treats me well. He s addicted to tv and phone. But he hardly gets time to spend infront of tv these days. Whenever i think of leaving him, he cries holding my hand asking for last chance. He doesn’t have parents and all he has is me and our child. That is the main reason i stayed with him from the beginning of our marriage knowing his condition.
Now me… i love him so much. I obviously expect him to love me and express his feelings. He never hugs me or kiss me unless i ask for it. Only i have to do or ask. There’s no such cute romances in our life. It never was there. Hug from back, kiss on sofa, playing in kitchen, shower together… such small things really matters and it’s all just a dream for me… i can’t see any romantic movies or songs. I immediately break down. Day by day i am going into depression. Sometimes i think of having an affair. I really think of it. And i even told him. But i dont want to do that. I dont want to have that guilt till i die… i am very good looking women so is he. When i go out even with child every men turns and looks at me. So many colleagues of mine appreciates my beauty and talks about my good dress sense, and being fit. But my husband never appreciated. If whenever i ask , he will just say you are always beautiful. And that’s it.
Now after reading my fate, please help me… tell me what should i do. How do i live this lifeless marriage till i die?? I want my child to be happy and get love from both parents. But i dont know how long i can survive in current condition.

Anyone still up?

Lonely

It has been more than 3 months since we broke up. I was able to ignore my feelings by keeping myself busy in work but from the last 2-3 days I have been missing her. I am unable to work properly.. I don’t know what to do. 

Breakup

I can't remember how many times I said I was fine, just because I didn’t want to bother someone with my issues.

Hello everyone! I'm new here, I don't know how to use this app🤷‍♂
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