It’s hard to even breathe in my own body nowadays. I guess it’s anxiety, but I cannot confirm it on medicinal grounds. Very frequent mental breakdowns. And now parents seem to think I was telling them some fake shit when I shared about this. A few months ago I wanted to end it all, but my sibling found out about my plans, so it failed. All my parents care about is I score good, like yeah you should be concerned about that, I used to score really good, but then this happened. It hurts that today, after knowing that I wanted to kill myself, all they ask is why couldn’t I score this time. I don’t feel like living anymore. I am numb, can’t feel anything.
Hey! Relax. Breathe.
Did you try to actually make them understand you? I think you should confront all your thoughts to them. I’m sure no parent wants their kid to end up their life. If they are not taking it seriously, tell them again. It’s fine. We’re humans right?
Also, if nothing works, stop caring about what they care for. Learn to work according to yourself. I know things will get a bit messy but it’ll be good for you. Don’t stress yourself. Just try to convey them as much as you can!
You’re really strong man.
