It was September 2018. I had just completed my diploma course. And I was jobless, couldn’t find any job till present. So out of boredom I created an account on a gaming app. At first I didn’t like it much. I thought I was wasting time by just being on that app and playing games. But one day, my parents were mad at me because I didn’t have a job and used to stay inside my room whole day. So that night I cried and just wanted to vent out my emotions so I went on that app and started talking to people using a fake name and fake profile picture (my then classmate’s picture). People on that app paid attention to me and I would be lying if I say that I didn’t enjoy it. After a while I made some friends there. But I was too shy and insecure about myself that I never told them about my real identity. I thought if I tell them, they will leave me. As the time passed, I got serious with one guy there. I confessed my feelings to him. Till this point he wasn’t aware of real me. He thought the person who is in my profile is me so he keeps on “liking” me as well. But I knew this is not going to stay forever. Once he knew about the real me, he’ll leave me. And recently I told him about my real self, he doesn’t talk to me the way he used to do. He’s flipped. And I’m sad. 🙃
Thesilentbuddha @jot
Give him some time n everythin jus gonna be fine…bcoz his luv is for u nt for dat dp of ur frnd…n dnt be sad…:)
I am a shitty person. I feel I owe him an apology. But he never gave me chance to talk to him again. Maybe he’s just busy. Another friend of mine there told me that he’s into my personality rather than my looks but I was too insecure of myself that I ghosted him too. Good thing is that he left that app and got busy in his life. (:
I found every kind of people there but I got attached to him. Should have told him the truth earlier so I wouldn’t lose him.
Also thank you so much for giving me hope (:
Thesilentbuddha @jot
First of all u r a gem kind of a prson not a shitty one…
Secondly approach him wid a frsh start on other social apps…
N dere is always time to get things right…
If u want to be wid him…den nobody can stop u…:)
Yeah! Right! But at the same time I don’t wanna make him feel uncomfortable by stalking him haha
Thesilentbuddha @jot
As u r nt till nw…:p
:D
He is probably just mad about that you broke his trust. You lied. But just give him some time. If he really loves you he’s gonna get back
Yeah! Now love is a very last thing in my head tbh. I just want him to be my friend. I wish I just had enough guts to confess everything to him. But once he got to know about me, he started ignoring me, kept my messages on seen. That’s when I thought maybe I’m trying too hard. Anyway I just wish I could rewind the time and start over with me being me with him and every person I met on that app. I wish I ain’t too insecure/shy.
I think you should just tell him how you really feel. Tell him about how he changed you, and you are so guilty that you lied, your reason to lie, and how it’s affecting you now, and ask him what you can do to make things right. Show him you are really trying to save the frndship
Yeah! Thanks. (:
