It just feels like another day why do I exist? What's the reason we all are here. What am I gonna do and reason i'm alive. I'm unable to define happiness. It feels like I don't know what it is or experienced. I'm not sad but neither i'm happy. I just got bored of this grind

Try keepimg your mind busy.Try going outside or any other activities.  Our mind unconsciously hears everything so try saying postive things .I know everything will be alright soon:)
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Lonely

3am Thoughts

That feeling when you don't want to call and talk to anybody , but you are wishing someone will call  and talk to you.

Depression

How to feel better when kind bored, feeling a bit lonely and want to text the ex. 

Not good


Anxiety

Feeling a little lonely on Diwali : ) 
Makes me feel grateful for the good times in the past :)

Happy Diwali y'all

i’m having a hard time with PCOS. i have this hirsutism problem ( excessive hair growth) and it makes me so uncomfortable. my skin gets dry so often…sometimes i am left feeling ugly. this is also making me hold back in relationships. you know, would a person actually like me with these flaws? idk. very often i look at myself in the mirror and it is okay from a distance. as soon as i have a closer look i see excessive hair on my freakin’ face and chest and just literally everywhere. i get into these thoughts UK…when my partner will get too close to me, he will see all these flaws. i feel like an imposter whenever he calls me beautiful. i have no clue how to react to compliments because i simply don’t feel like they’re genuine. sometimes, my skin even rejects the make up i put on and i end up looking like a piece of shit. the other day i cried out so bitterly because i felt so ugly the whole day. is it body dysmorphism? i can’t simply stop thinking about how all this facial hair looks whenever i am out. mostly these things make me feel unfeminine. the whole body needs so much waxing and shit that i just start feeling terrible about myself.

Body Dysmorphia

Ive been feeling a lot of tension between me and my girlfriend lately. She’s a year younger to me and she just started 11th grade. We aren’t in the same college. She’s made new friends has been hanging out with them and I’m happy for her since it’s difficult for her to socialise. It’s been 2 years since we know each other and 1 year since we developed feelings for each other. I asked her out recently and it’s been more than a month since we started dating. We were so in love with each other that we already started talking about ending up with each other and everything was great we had our downs we dealt with them. We were very practical about the “marrying each other” part and knew that it was easy to say but difficult to execute,but eventually both of us started taking that seriously. Recently, she texted me saying that if thinking about marrying each other was wrong, my heart dropped for a minute but then practically speaking she wasn’t wrong but I am so in love with her that it felt bad for some reason. I agreed with her for the moment and went on with the conversation. She said said that we didn’t know what was waiting for us in the future and then we started talking about how we’d be friends after we’d end things. But something was off, previously whenever we talked about ending things she used to tell me that she won’t end things with me no matter what, and I started accepting and reciprocating those feelings eventually. I asked her if she wanted a Casual relationship and she said said that it was a two way decision. I told her what I genuinely wanted, a serious relationship with her and huge ass para conveying my feelings. Her reply to that was “So now I know that you want a serious relationship right?”
and “I think I’m made for Casual relationships😭”. After she said that I asked her if she wanted a Casual Relationship again and she said “Noo but what about you”. I was in shambles. I thought to myself if I was the only one serious about us the whole time. Later she said she also wanted a serious relationship but I couldn’t trust her words anymore. I told her over text that she didn’t have to force her feelings for me just because she wants to make me feel better and she told me it wasn’t like that.
I avoided any further argument but this conversation is going to keep me up all night. I don’t know what she wants and what I should do.

I don’t know what to think of all that has happened.


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