Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

it has been 1 and half yrs since i got married to my first cousin, and moved to a foreign country, we are a huge joint family here. due to covid husband did’nt have job when we came here and had to live in other relatives support, it caused me a great stress since I was always brought up in a well to do family. 6 months back I was diagnosed with pcos, which was a result of my stress. now we both have a job , house etc, but my health is not good and causing problems to conceive.
Apart from this, I live with one of our relatives now, no one has ever let us be alone… the person i live with, has anxiety and depression problems, so she dosent let me be at peace sometimes, and it highly irritates me , but elders and family! cant say anything.
especially when it comes to kitchen work she keeps giving me orders which i hate and never lets me be at my own pace. there has been a lot I went through since i came here, never got a chance to go my country also to see my parents. I try my best to keep my emotions stable, but most of the time,I see myself overthinking and lost, and stressed. i want to be happy like before, why is it so hard to find my old self back. Im scared if my entire life will turn out to be this stressed and lost and lonely.
my husband is a gem, but I feel Im spoiling our relationship with these kind of irritations i have. that’s why I found this platform. please help me, your time is highly valued. Thank you