It feels so annoying when your own dad curses you

I don't think so.. I never get loved from him, he wants a son after all he just abuses me curses me that i am useless 

Did you try to talk with him about it ? It might help him understand your feelings

But you need to know that no matter how many times he does this , he loves you

I can totally understand how it feels💔

It's quite natural..but our parents loves us the most

Child Abuse

I wish my dad talked to me more. 

Family

I don’t like my dad at all he’s not a good human being.

Relationships

Today when I was at my shop with my father that moment one  small child came start asking for water that boy was without slipper first I told no to him (because of coronavirus ) water when I saw is eys I change my mind , then I try to give water to him but my father told me no  with anger but I try and that child was crying for water , I told that child to wait for few minutes my father was going home but that child left , after few minutes later when my father left . I removed 10 rupees and try to find that child I saw him I told him to come with me I will by him water but hi don't responsed to me and went , I have everything but told I lost my  I know that is my fault I should have fighting with my father. I started hurting myself .I can't stop thinking about him what I have done 

Loss

M so tired of my dad plssss..... Whats wrong with just staying silent, stop cussing me. I wont care if u take my phone... Stop lying u were angry stop blaming me for everything. Normalize having peace. I don't wanna get involved in ur chaoss... I hate when u get angry and cuss me with ur bad words..stop doing itttttttt. Just stop

Anxiety

This household isn’t for people who want to thrive in life - you try do something good & automatically get shut down because it’s not “the way dad likes it” 


3am Thoughts

How do you deal with physical abuse from your father? I'm a 19 year old guy dependent on my parents for my needs. Every time when my father has to give me money or spend it for me he starts a fight and he spends only when he no other choice. When I ask him to money to travel to college he beats me in the morning. He has his absolute dictatorship here. He doesn't allow me or restricts my freedom to a maximum extent so that I stay dependent on him and have to be submissive and obedient. I have been deprived of choices in my career due to his decision on what I have to study.He is abusive,  violent and arrogant by nature.My mother is very much accustomed to this toxic behavior and has adapted to it.But I cannot deal with this violent behavior.I started attending offline classes so that we don't clash during his online training and to stay away from home in order to avoid fights.He has extreme anger issues and struggles with money management. I cannot discuss about this with anyone .I cannot complain about this to anyone no one I know is capable or willing to go against  him to support me.His decisionsare often hasty, insensitive and is adamant .It has always been like I obey him I get what he thinks is best for me.He has only provided me with bare minimum and basic necessities in life.I agree that parents do struggle a lot to fulfill their children's needs but here He decides what I need.Anything for that matter. Right from my haircut to the color of clothes I wear has to be his choice-this is not because I want to be in any indecent attire or behavior according to the society but because he wants it to coincide with his idea..I am abused mentally, physically and emotionally almost everyday. I don't want to be beaten by father at this age and I definitely want to revolt or retaliate but my mother thinks that is wrong and everyone else is of a similar opinion. The abuse has traumatized me and affects my overall functioning in other aspects. Even when there's no abuse I have constant anger with in me about the behavior in me I just can't forgive or forget but I do not want to do anything or even care about the persons existence at all. Everytime I try to complain about the toxic behavior of his my mother tries to draw similarities with me and him which can not even be considered to be similar or relevant. There is extreme criticism for every action of minr. They have instilled so much of self hate in me.I have myself ,my achievements are never appreciated and I don't understand why some people think that it is disrespectful to not allow an elderly person to disrespect you. I am treated badly and I'm told Everytime I eat that I am eating from his earning and to have an opinion I should earn .the hypocrisy is that the person was dependent and only started to earn in his early 30s.I have to apologize every time even if I am right so I hate myself more than anyone I have ever met. I am always reminded of my mistakes from the past and it is used to control as they know it is a trigger to me. 

I was gonna post some of my secrets but screw that cause yk anyways 

Here's sort of a vent I have that was when I was pretty young. It weirds me out to this day. My dad would always hit me and pull my ear when I did something bad. One time He even opened the door and motioned me to leave the house. Now all of a sudden he cares and always does stuff for me like  one time he took me to some arcade place just because.



Binge Eating

I dont have a proper family.I lost my dad 2 years ago and my grandmother a year ago.now i have my mother and grandpa.I only have these two people in my life.my mom is very loud and i need her to be good to me.I tried to calm her but she never listens.apart from these I 've been in  a relationship from three years he was really good for two years and later he started to use me for money and cheated on me a few months ago.I had forgiven him even he abused me wid his words.He calls me now and then when he needs money i wanted to give up on him but he starts saying his problems and i couldnt let him suffer so i used to help him...i thought it was easy and okay but he is treating me like a shit and hurting me more wid his words.i told him i was not okay wid his words but he continues to shout at me very cruelly now it became very complicated i am getting really scared of him that i couldnt even say that i was hurting and dont call me..i also calls him sometimes because i dont have anyone to take care so i was scared to give up on him and i just wish that atleast he would talk to me wid respect...I know i had to keep distance from him but i was really scared to lose someone....I am okay and i dont have any anger on him for abusing me..i just need someone to comfort me and talk to me ...

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