is it weird that I want a relationship but I don't want to term it as relationship. Like I want to enjoy every little thing without making it complex by terming it. My friends don't get it. But maybe someone might you may. I feel relationships are complex. terming as a girlfriend boyfriend would make it more complex 

exactly. Like currently I'm enjoying his attention, the way he listens to me, the way he waits for me and smiles etc etc. And my friends are like you shouldn't do this if you don't want a relationship. like tf 

yesss and idk why its so hard to understand ugh! Isliye I'm avoiding this conversation of having a boyfriend or not. For me actions matter, title doesn't 

*Kaisi teri khudgarzi na dhoop chune na chaav(why are you so selfish, you are neither choosing sun nor shade)*, life is like that sometimes things are difficult, you have to choose one of them.

Just love truly,deeply and purely with an intention to be together for life,but yeah,as it is life,we also need to be practical, so keep few things practical too.

Confusion

My hearts hurting and it's hard to breath. My heart feels hard, and my shoulder feels tingling sometimes tight. Sometimes my leg feels the same way. I always wait to see if I'll have a heart attack but it doesn't happen.

Recently I had been through a lot.. And today I felt like taking a break from social medias especially WhatsApp, Instagram, telegram and so.. Does any of you know about any apps that would help us relax and feel better?

Exhausted

Bored...

Lonely

Need a coffe with chakli.....

Self Love

May be this is a trauma response, but whenever I feel too much or become too close to someone, I will force myself to detatch. Whenever a trust is formed, I will give signal to my brain; "No, remember what happend last time". 

And may be because of that, I have stopped sending requests or accepting requests on Now and me.

I already have friends here that I can count on one hand, too selective now a days, and they are gems ❤




3am Thoughts

Bolo zubaan kesari ❣️

I’m over with people getting mad at me when i do absolutely nothing like i don’t understand like if i did something wrong i will admit it but i have. Then getting rude comments when they r mad, they say they don’t mean them and i get some people say something mean when mad just to hurt u but all i am is nice to people. Tired of getting walked on all the time. 

I had a bestfriend once for last good 13 years and then he smoked weed and talked his heart out about how he was jealous of me and that I am not a good human just because I was clearing my exams effortlessly and he was missing by a whisker...and that was the moment I lost the only bestfriend I had. It's been 4 days and I'm not able to recover from it. I usually don't cry but now I cry while doing every other task even while running. Everytime I remember his words I just can't control my tears. I don't know the feeling of breakup but this is hurting like hell. I'm sure I will have trust issues my entire life hereon. Man 13 years . We knew every bit of each others life and then he insults you infront of your common friends.

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