Is it too much to ask respect and do I even need to ask for respect idk what’s up with me I’m just trying so hard to change myself to be a better person to be more mature and understand other people’s situation but I don’t think so it’s happening that way and I’m worried I’ll end up being immature and hurt people be selfish I don’t want to be that person but somehow in the moment I end up doing it and regret it later but I see myself improving this part in my relationship not with others but with my bf I have stopped doing things which irritates him or the things he doesn’t like each an everything and I do it because it was my mistake I cheated on him for straight 10 months which I didn’t realise I was doing so wrong I wanted to confess from so long but the thought of losing me just didn’t let me do it and he got to know I’m just so in love with this guy I did everything whatever he said I stopped talking to boys I stopped going out even If I had the opportunity I stopped talking to friends so much I’m not even having ig account I do everything but even after all this he slut shames me says bad things to my family to me so I started avoiding the topics related to family and all that but even if I ask him one question about anything more than once he easily gets pissed idk it’s just me but it’s too much I expect him to be nice to me a little bit and Ik one day is going to happen with me whatever I have done to him and so many people yesterday in a fight he just compared me to his ex and said same hi ho tum dono and I can’t just get over this statement ever in my life I guess I’m not talking to him anymore I just said after that statement I don’t want to talk he said okay and has not texted me in almost 24 hours and ik he won’t idk what’s wrong is it me?I deserve it because of what I did but I totally accept it was my mistake and I was ready to do anything but I never said ir asked for disrespect idk maybe I don’t even deserve to be alive anymore I have done wrong to everyone I’m sorry…
I have always kept my family close to my heart but I feel that it is not reciprocated. I am always afraid of being a failure and I don’t trust people often. He has shown nothing but hatred towards everything I do and i kept my distance but at the end he is my brother so I feel lie they should be in my life always. I chose to stand up for myself and in the process his true colors came through. He has stopped talking to me as i will not discuss what major I will be doing. I feel he doesn’t respect me or care about me as you would do to your family just wants to be better than me and if I am better than him then he wants to cut all ties. Have any of you experienced this with your siblings?
Hey thankyou so so much idk about today or in recent but in sometime definitely we are going to breakup we both know but it just gets difficult to move on personally I want him to change which is not going to happen so I try every time to move on hopefully this ends well thankyou so much for not judging just thanyou so much
