is it okay to be afraid of how much you don't care about anything anymore 

Yeah it is okay. I believe as long as you don't hurt someone especially directly, you can think anything.

I'm feeling like the same thing....🤧in an organ🫀 that presents between two sponge like air convertors 😂and I'm too anxious and exhausted about that

Depression

Taylor's any lyrics?

3am Thoughts

I have been having problems with everyone around me for the last year or so, communicating is almost impossible for me and I am stuck in my head. I am fully aware of the fact that I have my walls highly built and I won't let anyone try to get to me, yet I don't know how to get rid of this mindset and get my life together. I am experiencing existinal crisis as well, and I have made myself believe that nothing matters. 
Recently I moved out of my childhood apartment with my family, and I was thinking that new place meant new beginning. When I looked back at that apartment, I could see my childhood being spent there (although I do not have clear memories because of certain trauma). But exactly one month after I moved out, I woke up to the news of one of my relatives death. He had commited suicide in the same building. Now looking back, all I see is death, not innocent childhood. And it made me believe that nothing really matters, and I truly believe that I don't have much time left.

Self Harm

I just wanna grab a knife and stab them all so that they can finally shut the fuck up! THEY ARE TOO FUCKING LOUD

Emotional Abuse

I have lost interest in almost everything. I feel dead from inside. Living with depression is difficult, you have to fight with yourself every day. The pain cannot be measured that I go through. I feel the weakest. Waking up in the morning aimlessly, clueless about what I wanted to do. I gasp for breath, even breathing feels like a tough task. I really want to die. I cannot take this pain. Due to this, my studies are also getting affected. I feel useless. I want to commit suicide. I want to free myself from this immense pain. I do not know what to do, how to do it. 

It's been 5 years of that darkest period of my life. nd while writing this my innerself is saying 'it won't help you'. But anyway i'll write since it's the first time i'm sharing this out. 
I don't want to call myself a mental person..no i'm not. But i am so frustated of myself... I have not been able to do anything in my life since then. It's like a ghost that haunts me every time i've tried to do something and move on. The flashback and fake scenarios everytime is what i live with. It's not that i i've left every thing. At times when i m under pressure i've done tasks  and moving along with life... But but i've turned into a a person i never thought of a pathetic person... I'm lost . And there is some thing like stroke of this trauma that i suffer with .it occurs periodically at interval of some days. When it is at its peak. I've already lost many carrer opportunities.nd still getting sucked by it. Its not that i m not alive, obviously people have many responsibilities in life but the repurcursion of this trauma has been turning me to a numb,dead person and my life has no hope...but i'm so done with it... I don't know how to i fix myself..but i cannot live this pathetic life where i'm drowing more nd more into darkness!

Psychology

Since it's Mental Health Awareness Day today, I wanted to share a self regulation check list we had made a few months back, which still seems to be helpful on some tough days, where we cannot get ourselves to do anything. 

Taking care of ourselves can be difficult for us, a lot of times. Here's a little something we can try doing, when everything feels heavy. :)

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Gentle Self Regulation Checklist for Hard Days 🌻

Essential tasks- 
1. Get out of bed.
2. Take a shower.
3. Clean up one space/thing.

Be mindfully present to- 
1. A sound or your favourite song 
2. A sensory feeling 
3. Something you enjoy seeing
4. Reach out to someone beyond your home setting.
5. Do one thing that gets your heart rate up
6. Reach out to mental health care helplines 






Self Love

Hopeless. Drowning. Only if someone could hear me out. 

Social Anxiety

some people are just not meant to live. they are too sensitive. it’s me. i am they. 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts