I'm very much borred of my life.
I am feeling lonely very much these days
No-one to talk 
I don't want to live anymore 😢


3am Thoughts

i don't know how to explain it i just feel blank. I like it but at the same time i want the feeling to go away. My mind is not the same anymore, that is something i just have to accept. I'm starting to write down my thoughts in the morning, it helps, i feel good afterwards. I hope today goes by quick. I'm also taking long deep breaths that help aswell. I'm going to therapy but i don't know how i feel on it.

Mental Health

Koi hai ky Abhi? 
Kuch share krte hai 
Mja aega 

Lonely

Y'all I need help! So basically I want to talk with my mom about my pain, since she's vulnerable cuz her mom is hurting her mentally I want to talk with her about mental health and about what I've been through because of her but I don't know how or where to start, I've tried 15 minutes ago but I want to cry so bad and because of my vulnerability this is preventing me from doing it. The last time I tried she told me that I was ungrateful that's why I'm so afraid of doing it again, note that I'm trying for the third time

Mental Illness

The worst thing you can even be in your life is being Sensitive & guess what, a sensitive guy.
You feel everything, yet you feel nothing.

People are so caring for others, but they don't give a shit about your emotions, even if you give your 200% to everything.
Even the tiniest thing could trigger, disturb, and ruin you. But you know what? Those tiny things could make me fly, could give me genuine happiness.

I'm sensitive, I observe how you interact, how you think, what you think, your eyelashes, your lips, your eyebrows, even that small mole next to your earlobe, I see everything, I notice everything, I remember everything.
I remember how you touched me on the 19th of Dec, 2023. or that first met, when you complimented my dress. I remember everything.

My post might sound like "girly" stuff because that's what people think about me before they know my gender. Or that's what people think in real life, that I'm just too soft, too polite, too kind.
But let me tell you one thing, these are not "girly" stuff, these are just emotions, ways to talk, write, and express.

Why?
Why are we not sensitive towards a guy's emotions?

And yesssss, a lot of guys are emotional, that's a very natural thing, but most (or maybe all) of them never express, never talk, never show. They die a million deaths, before the real one. They can't even cry openly, or even secretly.
They heaviness, you can't ever understand the heaviness guys carry inside, especially around families, parents, love, you never know, or might never know.
We don't have 10+ DMs waiting for our replies for the next coffee. No. We just have 3 chats, whom we care about. Who matters to us, and it breaks our hearts when they break it.

I'm not saying guys are all glittery, perfect, emotional. No. I'm saying they are also*.


So if you have any guy, whom you care about, whom you love, who falls into this category. 
Hug him, 
hold him tightly, 
allow him to be comfortable, 
tell them you love him, and don't just say, act. 
Listen to them, the way you want someone to listen to you. 
Care about them, the way you want him to care for you. 
Trust him, 
show faith, 
show love, the real one. For us the sensitive one we get it when someone is genuine, and we get it if they pretend.
Don't treat them as shit, they aren't.
Don't use them.
Don't use them to heal yourself, or to pass your time. Please don't.

And if you are sensitive..
I know how deeply, and intensely we feel. How small things matter to us, how the expectations - exponentially grow with the close ones, how broken we feel - yet can't express. The embarrassment, shame, guilt, etc, etc. I know it all. I feel it all. All I can offer you right now, is love, deep love. Hug your blanket, your cushion tightly, feel the love for yourself, and I'll pray you get someone who reciprocates the same for you


PS: I might have mixed up, sensitive guys, myself, guys in general, emotional guys, here & there. Toh jo jaha shi se fit ho rha ho, maan lena, because I'm very tired to correct myself, like really really tired, mentally exhausted. Because?.... Yeah, you get it, I'm a sensitive guy,

time to bottle all my feelings up

Mood Disorder

There was a boy who I met at a clg function then he started confessing his feelings again n again n I always take it as a jk cuz he also had some crushes for a while which he also told me but with time idk why but I started developing feelings for him but I never tell him then he asked me again so I said that I want to do the marriage so he talked to his close cousins n mom somehow about me but at the same time he is also doing flirt  with a senior girl who is engaged. till yet we r not in any relationship but still I'm very confused is he really interested in me?

Exhausted

Any NEET 2020 aspirants here? (dropper)

I know it's weird to ask this question on this platform.
But yea..if anyone's up, we shall connect?! 
:) 

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