Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m trying to figure myself out and organize my brain and emotions but it is difficult. I have ADHD and Aspergers and organization is just nearly impossible for me in the way that I want. I want to control my brain but I cannot. Wish I could. I want to do this so I can have normal relationships with other people, but I don’t talk about things like they do, nor do I think about the same things. I don’t want to skip the chance to have relationships with people who don’t have the same issues I do, I like meeting people, getting to know them, and forming relationships with anyone I can and feel comfortable with. It’s not easy. Relationships are really new to me because I’d always been on my own in self-expressions. I didn’t really ever form a friendship like you’d usually find. Where we’d both care deeply for one-another. It’s new to me, but it’s something big I’ve been missing. I need these relationships. I really hate being on my own, I hate being alone, and I hate even just being by myself. I had been that way my whole life and I just don’t want it anymore.