i canβt relate to it so idk how you are feeling, but i hope that you prioritize yourself sometimes and find what you are looking for.
if you are in college, i am assuming your siblings are old enough to take care of themselves. you donβt need to babysit em
Itβs a parentβs job to look after their children, itβs not yours. Tell your parents. Talk to them.
What do your parents do?
I can understand how you are feeling as Iβm the oldest in the 2 of all my siblings and cousins and everyone expects me to be a good sister and role model for them. Itβs been many times my aunt mom and dad told me to give up my things to my siblings and cousins and if I oppose they emotionally blackmail me by saying that because of me my brother and cousins are spoiled because they saw me and learnt. So if you can move away from there just do it and remember YOU ARE NOT SELFISH FOR THINKING ABOUT YOUR LIFE .