I'm The Always One Who Trying To Keep Everyone Happy, And Yet Always Ending Up Feeling The Lonely.

3am Thoughts

I feel like I always have a need to be the best at everything. If I don't complete the assignment first, I failed myself or if I didn't study longer or take more AP classes than another person, that someone will always look down on me. Sometimes I just wish someone who I did a pot for just said that they were proud of me and my accomplishments. 

Education

 it hurts  and very hard for us...now i don't talk with people anymore because the moment they see me either they ghost me or they friendzone me...in college also my teachers prefer pretty girls over me..my gym trainer also prioritise beautiful girls over me so i stopped gym too...i am not that confident me anymore...i want to be happy again... because of all these thoughts i am lacking in studies too...i am the ugliest person in my family and friends group...i just came to know that i was never a first choice of my ex he always wanted to date my friend but she had a bf so he asked my another friend out but she was already into someone so she asked him to date me and i thought he liked me...and tbh  he was not that smart himself but i still liked him not because i was lonely but because i thought he loved me....i am such a looser.. neither i am good in sports or in studies..i am a looser...i am completely lost

Pretending to be okay while suffering in silence isn't easy at all.

Life

Just a daily reminder that it is your responsibility to check on yourself and you’re the creator of your own happiness 

Have An amazing day 💗

Affirmations

Random thought. Reading romance novels all the time has given me ridiculously high hopes with weirdly low self esteem lmao

Hello everyone..........!

Body Positivity

I have this boy best friend whom I found in college first year and dated him for a month only lol 🥲 after that we stopped talking for a while and then we were talking again, we were casually talking about relationships and he said 'he only gets into a relationship with someone with whom it doesn't even matter if the relationship ends or not but with whom he wants the bond to last long he doesn't get into relationships with them' 
And i kinda thought maybe that's why we are still talking, and i like how he shares everything with me and he's way too comfortable around me. 
One evening he was way too irritated by everyone but called me just to talk, whenever he buys something he's always giving me a haul of what he got. 
One day I slept the whole day and the next day i asked him did you know how many hours i slept he said 'ummmm you didn't sent me any reel yesterday to I guess the whole day' and i was like okay he notices every little detail about me 🫢

Basically i am not much into parties , drugs and any other stuff which is cool for today’s teenagers, I rather like spending time in cafe and talk about goals , mental health or reading book but i am happy with my lifestyle but my friends think that i have ego because I don’t spend much time with them but instead their talks and vibes makes me insecure and I am happy the way i am :) . 

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