I'm stressing about and I'm crying and my chest hurts. I'm overwhelmed by my work and its all getting too much. I have no time for myself anymore. I just had a sob session and I don't know what to do.

Stress

I dont know why i am feeling down often.Totally feeling tired in thinking about me. I dont know whether i am honest to myself or not. I want to be honest to myself. But i couldnt. Its like in my life i have to hid my feelings and live. During few times i feel like i am corpse of no feelings. Did i do wrong in interseted in men! .. Why cannot our society simply accept it for it as it. I feel i am being coward not following feeling and cheating myself to make my loved ones happy to extreme. I am feeling uncomfortable being like this. Even my i am not sure that my friends will accept me for what i am!. ...i am totally fed up in myself.

Depression

Feeling like I'm drowning....
Just have to survive looking up. 

3am Thoughts

When taylor swift sang, "i forgot that you existed, it isn't love, it isn't hate, it's just indifference" i felt that so deep in my heart 😭

Love

I feel like I've been drowning forever and there is no way out of this misery except to kill myself.

i find it hard for me to let out how i truly feel like ive been through alot and all my life ive had this problem in my mind ofc i can say what i want just fine but when i want to let it out its like i get all idk anxious? and its hard for my words to come out the way i want it too like right now i just recently had a break up with my gf and i told her i need to talk and it needs to be tonight cause i lied and said i was at my grandpa house cause idk how to let out my feelings like i struggle so hard with that and idk what to do and people act like its easy to let it out but for me its not they dont understand my struggle and even if i try to write it out its still hard to let everything out like it is in my head even now im having a hard time typing this... and idk thats not the only thing i struggle with but i was just wondering if anyone out there go through the same as i do and can leave some advice i guess? if anyone can help me on this i'll be thankful for it

Anxiety

today? its been from 7 months I feel like m useless, fucked up, messed up, I totally don't know what I will do throughout my whole life, emotionally n mentally stressed, sometimes I feel like committing suicide, cuz I don't understand people, in spite of they know that I go through hard times but still they backstab me. they try to take advantage of me, I m going crazy n worst thing is that it been a year now m applying for a job but nothing is happening, m like totally invisible I don't know what to do, I can even just leave everything n travel, cuz m fucking  bankrupt😇, still, I believe in positivity in my life that something good will happen

Life

I feel really helpless. These past two weeks, I've been having a depressive episode. Usually they don't last longer than a few days, but I feel like I'm getting worse day by day. The things that used to make me happy, the things that I used to do are not giving me joy or helping me feel better. I keep getting into arguments with my family and I feel like I'm hurting everyone around me. I am failing horribly in school because I sleep through days. I feel so tired, so exhausted. I have tension headaches, so thoes aren't helping at all. Especially since they usually last a long time (2 days at most). I hate social interactions, now. I never used to, I'm a pretty social person, but now, having conversations is exhausting. I want to be left alone, but my family doesn't seem to understand. And the ironic thing is, I feel so lonely. I'm talking to thin air as if someone was actually with me. I'm making scenarios, pretending I'm happy and with people I love. It's gotten so bad that I'm paranoid I'm in one of my scenarios and in reality, I'm in public, doing something embarrassing. To make those thoughts pass, I pinch myself to reassure myself I'm awake. And it's causing me to bleed and scar. And even dreaming doesn't make me feel that way. I usually fall asleep at 6 pm cause I'm so tired. Then I wake up at 2 am. Then from then on, I can't sleep and I end up staying up most of the day, napping on and off. I don't know what to do to make me feel better. I'm also paranoid about something else. I'm really close with my dad, and I don't know why, but I keep thinking that if something happens to him, I'll have no choice but to kill myself if I lose him. He's by far the only person keeping me going. I can't even go to people and talk to them cause I feel like a bother. And my best friend isn't doing anything to help me. I'm so lost and confused, I don't know what to do. 

Hey… Is there anyone who recovred from ocd?
Tell me how u feel after that?
Does life really get better?
I can’t confess this anywhere else but i have sexual ocd (due to a trauma it was triggred) and now I just don’t know even if I like a guy I despise myself and I started watching hentai due to this coz then idk it increases my pain
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I knew something was wrong with me when I got to know my close relative is pregnant I should be happy for her but instead I feel sad all I can see is darkness ☹
I wish to get out this cycle soon
Maybe ur story will help 🥺

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