I'm not hungry yet I still eat I dig through the trash bc I threw it away but I wasn't done eating why can't I just stop and put the fork down

Eating Disorder

Can someone tell me what is eating disorder in detail??


Disorders

I hate food. I'm hungry but the thought of food or the smell disgusts me. just imagining the food on my plate in my mouth is disgusting me. lately I don't even eat snacks I used to like, finishing my meals are getting harder. I don't even wanna drink coffe or energy drinks. the only okay thing is water and cereal in the mornings. I haven't been having lunch about few months and now dinner is getting too hard. I don't even cook. it's just all the food is disgusting to me. the thing is I'm hungry my hands could shake from it but any food I can think of is so disgusting that I'd rather be hungry. Today I had cereal at 2 pm and now at 11 pm I tried to have dinner, but only made it to half of my plate. today's eating is done bc it felt so bad in my mouth chewing it I had to take it out in a napkin. I just wanna live off on water. not even ice I used to eat is okay. just water and breakfast.

Other

Suffering from worst eating disorder.

Caregiver

i used to eat once a day. i didn’t feel hungry and i just didn’t like to eat. i was underweight and had low blood pressure. but i was 100% okay with this. besides, people kept calling me skinny, and skinny shaming isn’t harmful, right? 🙄 anyway. then, i visit extended family who eat 3 times a day, every day, for two weeks. then, i go out and travel almost every day for another two weeks, so i’m forced to eat more to top up my energy reserves. it’s been a month since i returned home and i’ve been eating way more than i used to. my body is now used to eating 2-3 times a day and i am so sick of it. i hate it. 

HELLO I NEED HELP
TG *EATING DISORDER *

I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m not keeping a healthy eating habit, since I just traveled from a country, I have to stay in quarantine therefore I cannot go out and eat, however I have lots of food/ingredients at home. For about a few days now that I have been unintentionally starving myself, not because I fear weight gain, but because I don’t find food at home appealing to me right now so I’ve been stalling eating, I can’t come up with something I want to eat and other foods at home just seems boring to me even though I am physically hungry but mentally I do not want to eat, I’m trying to chew on some bread but I can’t eat a meal. Is this a type of eating disorder?? How do I fix this? I have ADHD by the way and I’m not on meds coz they make me want food even less.

My psychologist says she suspects I have a binge eatinf disorder or something on the point of compulsive eating

Idk how to feel about this

She told my dad (I sorta agreed) but I feel so uncomfortable.

I keep second thinking that I'm not doing that bad but I literally eat until I physically feel unwell

Idk what to feel or do 

I have suffered from binge eating in hiding for 2-3 years. I've been out of it since the last 6 months but I have instances here and there.

Lately, it's been happening a lot. I'm afraid it might relapse. Any advice? Pls help. 

CW: ED (I don’t wanna put the TW tag on it because I need people to see the preface.)
Please don’t just scroll past this post. I need help and I need it urgently. It’s not a crisis but it’s not something that can wait until tomorrow or something. So just. Please don’t ignore this.

Can someone please give me motivation to eat? I’d prefer if it came from someone who’s also struggled with an ED or at least understands that “just eat, you’re beautiful the way you are” or other shit like that doesn’t help, because I need real motivation, because if someone doesn’t intervene, I know I won’t eat anything today (won’t even have to eat dinner because my parents are going out tonight so my brother and I are just gonna get pizza or smth) but that “MoTiVaTiOnAl” shit doesn’t help. I need someone who understands and knows the feeling, but who has made it out and can actually help me. Please. This is a really bad relapse and I need to get out of it but I’m stuck and I need someone to intervene and motivate me to eat in a way I can actually listen to.
Thank you.
-Sky

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