Iβm not going to mention my age, but I was recently supposed to start my first year of high school in September. last year I had to do online classes due to COVID-19 and quarantine, but Iβve been craving my old routines and school life. So I was excited when my parents said that I would be returning to face-to-face in September.
however, with the recent surge in cases, they suddenly wanted me to do online for my first semester. Iβm feeling really upset and stressed right now because thereβs not much i can do about it; Iβm fully vaccinated, but my younger sister canβt receive the vaccine because sheβs too young. alongside this, both my siblings (Iβm a middle child) are taking online, and my parents will be returning to work, so it would be more convenient for me to take online either way.
At the same time, I feel really upset and depressed about my predicament; i really donβt want to miss my first semester of high school since I feel like itβs crucial for me to reconnect with my peers and get the experience. i know online school is supposed to be less stressful and everything, but it feels like Iβve been stuck in a time loop for way too long. i also feel like i got my hopes up way too quickly and that i should have lowered my expectations because obviously, things arenβt going well. i think I was a bit too optimistic and combined with my previously mentioned feelings, I took the news really hard and itβs been affecting my sleeping habits, along with my mental health.
was it wrong for me to get my hopes up? i feel like i did for no reason, and now Iβm feeling the consequences of doing so. the people around me are constantly telling me to look on the bright side all the time, but i donβt think i really can with this news. is it selfish for me to really want to return to normal schooling?
No, you are not the only person having the same thought. I too wanted to have physical classes than to attend boring online classes. I want to talk to friends very badly, and see the smiles and faces of my close mates. Unfortunately, I too have to accept the fact that recent surges of cases caused my country to postpone the reopening of school. Even though I feel sad and have negative thoughts or feelings at times, but I realised that I donβt want any of these things. So I try to discover what MY body and mind WANTS, and to fulfil my own needs with the right methods. I takes a lot of time to find yourself, and to learn how to love yourself, but you MUST NOT give up hope! When you feel disappointed, tell yourself that all these things will be over, and everything will be fine soon! We cannot do much, so I think we should pray to God and Jesus Christ for help, forgiveness and guidance to overcome any problems. And we must also surrender everything we have to God, to put our hopes on Him as only God has full control over everything. So donβt be worry, try hard to find your true self. Talk to your friends about funny or silly things per say. By doing so you can also help them to feel accompanied instead of alone. May God guide us and help you in everything. Cheers!