I’m not feeling okay, I’m super stressed out. I understand that my problems may be meaningless and pretty trivial compared to most of yours, especially since I created my own problems.
I have a PTM now, and they are going to check my notes, out of which not a single one is complete, and I really, don’t want my mother to know. My thoughts are racing, and I feel like killing myself. I’d rather not exist.
I remember such PTMs! I seriously don’t know how I survived them but I did. You will too. Best of luck.
And if the situation worsens, just start complaining about the teacher, it might work.