I'm new here and this is a bit difficult to be honest, but the anonymity feels liberating. I'm isolating in my room (day 5 of COVID) and I'm feeling better but I can't seem to do anything. I'm afraid of feeling guilty later that I didn't use this time to tidy up my room or (I'm a teacher) prepare lesson plans for next week, which logically I should be able to do but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. Any advice? 

5 day aaram kar liya
Ab kuch kar liya jaye

Motivation

No 1.
my first time using dis web...i hope it can help me..i guess..i dont care..i just want to write something..hahaha..well...hello to everyone tht read my first post ever..hope u guys doing fine..i wish u guys will hv better day than me...i always have worse day ever but i still want to survive..i want to live..can i?😅😅

I'm looking good friend

Anxiety

Idk what to do since I started live again and to gain my 5yrs back self , I'm not able to socialize myself, why I'm so afraid, i mean today in library they called me upstairs bcs of ganesh prayer but i got scared and went out of the library as I'm really afraid of getting sarrounded by people... I'm coward and feeling shitty as hell , I'm getting so afraid feels like I'm pulling back into that same mental state of 5yr dpresion ... there're many things i wants to tell but i guess being on a journey of heal i should focus on fighting one thing at a time..

3am Thoughts

I really need a therapist. I've been been getting episodes of depression for 6 years now. Everytime I'm depressed, I realise I don't have enough money to go to one and when I get better I feel like I can handle it just to realise the same thing in next episode.
If you know any who can help me with it with low/no charges. That'd be a huge help. Thanks.

Depression

I love you. You have been there for me through hard times. I’m sorry I left without a word. I can’t handle the hurt you give me anymore. I can’t keep depending on you forever. Bye.

Friends

"Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."

Career

I never thought my own sister can be so toxic for my mental health she has literally made my life a living hell creating misunderstandings between me and my parents and even I try to explain I am also the bad person here. Nobody wants to understand they are too busy with their lives. Even if I ask a simple question I always get negative and rude replies from them. I don't think I deserve such a treatment and nobody ever should. One's home should be a place where you rest your head and another battlefield.

I really don't know when he get that special place in my life, we have only 2 years connection or bond or relationship whenever u can say but that 2 years is enough too understand he is the right guy, he is completely perfect family man, who take care of his family, and I'm so proud of him, if someone is asked me what's you like in him and y u love him? I'll be blank, i don't know but i can't live without him. I don't want his name, money, i don't want anything from him, my expectations is Whenever I'll meet him ,  he should hug me, and put his hand over my head and say everything is ok baby, I'm always with you. that's it 

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