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Anonymous

I’m losing it. I don’t care about anything anymore. I wake up and it’s just another day. I’ve probably had 2/3 hours sleep at best. I’m exhausted but I can’t manage more than that. I can’t turn off and fall asleep at night.

I wake up and I just lie here. There is nothing for me to do. Nowhere for me to go. No one expecting me, relying on me… no one missing me.

It’s just me. In this room that isn’t mine. On this fold up temporary bed. In this life that’s suddenly my existence… because that’s all I am now. Just existing. Just breathing. Just here.

No more wedding planning. No more house hunting for that perfect family home. No more security. No arms to hold me as I fall asleep at night after a long day. No plans for tomorrow. No more believing 8 years of love meant anything.

I’m just lead here. Nothing but thoughts and memories and the daydreams of the future we planned for so long it seems irreplaceable.

I’m just alone. I have no purpose. It’s all gone.

I won’t get up again today. I won’t eat again, I’m not hungry anymore.

I hope one day soon I fall asleep and it keeps me. It’s the only thing that could want to keep me now… The only thing I have left to hope for.

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Anonymous

Honestly, I’ve been going through the same thing.
Someone suggested me to read Ramraksha stotra and it literally helps a lot in soothing myself.
After which I’m able to at least not think of attempting suicide which, otherwise, I used to do 4-5 times a day ingesting a lot of different poisonous things.

This suggestion could be religion specific and you also might be an atheist, but I’ll still suggest you to try it at least twice.

Also, I won’t say all those “everything would be alright” things, but what I would rather say is we all love you and I mean it. We all love you, we all love your existence among us and your existence matters a lot to us. Even if you don’t see a reason to live, please think of us. We all want you to be here. Please eat. Please sleep.
And for loneliness, I would love to talk to you. Can we be friends?

@kusum

Your post is heartwrenching.
I really dnt know what shd i write so that you feel little better…
From your post it is very evidet that your some dream,some relation something precious in ur life has all shattered
n with that you too have broken completely
N 8 years a really huge period…
See I dnt know what has gone wrong in your life
But all i know is you are badly hurt…
Dear friend
It is indeed a tough phase of your life
Please try staying as strong as possible…
Please donot give up
Pls…
You have to live for urself…
You know
We all are born alone
(Except some cases where twins are born)
We all die alone(Again few exceptional cases or tragedies are there in which multiple ppl loose life)
But nobody ever told us the most bitter reality of life
In life sometimes we have to live alone also…
You have the most longest relation with ur ownself
So you have to try to get urself out of this…
See for 8 long years someone was in your life
But what about the period from your birth to those 8 years must be definitely longer than 8 years
So that time that person was not there
Still you were there.
I know it pains

Very deep
Very intense
It pricks…

But is being harsh on urself or punishing urself any solution???

Pls try to create some reason for yourself to wake up daily …
Pls try getting your mind engaged in some activity
Any activity that gives u happiness n peace…
Pls try to counsel your own mind…
If required take medical help
But pls dnt give up…

Life can be cruel
Still it will be kind some day
Pls dnt let your hopes fade…

Pls help urself out of this…

May u find strength.

Take care…

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