I’m feeling very depressed because my father doesn’t let me breathe. I’m very grateful to him for educating me but he doesn’t let me and my mother talk or speak. He is a very self centred and toxic person. Very difficult to talk or handle. I get treated like a cattle around him. If I try to explain, he gets severe anxiety and starts hitting himself. I don’t know what to do anymore. I self blame all the time and I find ways of committing suicide. Only if I were brave enough and had courage to make my mother go through all of this. I’m suffocated mentally.
jay @jay12
Hey what happened
Bad news around, frustration, my father is from sales and due to lockdown, I had to shift back home. This was my mistake ! I cannot deal with him anymore. Every small tthing somehow becomes my faukt.
He is from sales. So speaking with and yelling are his forte. I’m sorry I didn’t mention that on my last comment. I’m so done with life right now that I find ways to end it.
jay @jay12
Maybe he is frustrated too
He takes all his anger on you
jay @jay12
No dont
jay @jay12
I’m here for you
I curse myself every minute that I am unable to gather courage to end my life once and for all. I’m scared to do it. I’m a coward that way. Then I think about my little sister and mother and then I stay away from these thoughts.
jay @jay12
No dont ever think that!
jay @jay12
Do you mind talking outside?
jay @jay12
Ik I may sound creep but I think you need a friend
is talking to your mother an option?
if it is then talk to her if not write and you can always talk to me i will try my best to help you and you are not a coward you are strong that you think of your mother and your sister before doing anything
what exactly is the situation here
are your parents separated?
if you are comfortable you can text me on my ig acc it is only for helping people by talking you are strong please don’t give up on life now you are loved and think before you do anything it is not okay to be mean to yourself❤
Ok first of all it is a good idea to go to a psychologist and ask for advice, you could go as a family there. If you are underage you can seek help and go to family psychology sessions. I think you need professional help, if you go to school talk with a teacher you are the most close to. Please try reach out for help it is about your health. I am also 19 years old and i come from a really stressful family, they still not let me breathe sometimes, however i gave up and say always yes. Please talk to someone, don’t think about suicide, it is not your fault for your family issues, you will have a long life and you are still at the start of it.
