I’m feeling too weird. I love my girlfriend. Hell helllll a lottt. Like really i plan to be with her . But because we are in a long distance relationship. Sometimes when i feel too much grief because she isn’t here with me. My coping mechanism maybe work like it that my emotions about her get buried i feel disconnected to her. Also because we talk very little. My mind is so weird.
I cheated on her when another girl gave attention to me because I’m not used to that. It’s not like i did it for fun. I caught feelings for her a bit. Idk why. I haven’t told her about that because i don’t want my relationship to fall . I just told my girl that i liked another girl a lil and i kissed her.
Now after months. I still love her a lot. Maybe more by each passing day. But I’m sexting with another girl. I never send her any picture of mine. She knows I’m committed and we are doing it for fun. But whyyyyy. Why am i like this. Why i have no self control. It doesn’t happen that often but if i feel comfortable with some girl and feel like they are really sad i try to make them happy and then they gave me attention and unknowingly i just fall for that.
My girlfriend is my bestfriend too. I don’t like hiding from her. But it’s hard. I can’t stop myself. Somebody please just curse at me. Yell at me. Tell me how wrong i am. Sometimes in order to punish Myself I don’t even eat properly for days. But I’m so weak.
I’m not poly because i want to spend my whole life with just her when she was with me I didn’t even look at another girl. But now I’m being such a jerk just somebody please say some mean things to me
Dear User, for your own safety, we urge you to NOT share any personal information [email, phone number, social media handles, address etc.] with other Now&Me users.