Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I’m feeling pathetic
My luck sucks
My life sucks
I want to end this all but can’t do that reasons… 1) I love my parents more than myself 2) I am not that brave
Don’t have friends because they just used me not once but everytime I recover from the past then again get punched with betrayal
Don’t have love tried but got Bodyshamed in return
Environment is so toxic not even one person that I can recall who made my heart filled with happiness ofcourse parents are the exception
Pursuing the career after sacrificing my passion because of financial issues
Have pcod so obviously weight and female pattern baldness fatigue Hirtuism makes my beauty have no one neither do I care but I also don’t have peace and happiness I am empty I don’t want to be me anymore I am too pathetic lol really at this moment I wished someone would just hit me with a truck so that I can sleep peacefully eternally but my luck’s so pathetic that even if that would happen I’ll just become handicapped with more suffering and pain I hate myself for being this stupid how can someone always get betrayed even after always loving others how can I be so pathetic to be Living this life where all I can do is survive this injustice is God not feeling any guilt for giving me this hard time okay I told him that I’ll fight but till when I really don’t want to live but can’t even die because my parents will suffer but I hate my life and myself because I am still ready to forgive them all for still waiting for love and friendship I hate this heart of mine why it’s this soft when the life is so hard I hate it I hate everything I hate the fact that I’m breathing I really hope if you’re reading this your life will be completely opposite of mine. Thank you for reading.