I'm feeling like shit. I don't know what to do with my life nothing is going the way i want it to happen i feel so ashamed of going infront of everyone. I don't feel like living anymore i really want to die i badly want to die but i don't have that guts to do so. 

Suicidal Ideation

I have been feeling really low lately and i want to share my feelings with someone because its getting overwhelming and i cant cope up with it any longer .I have few friends , they've got their own problem so i dont want to trouble them, besides they wont get me anyway. It feels like i dont fit in anymore. The problem starts with my family , they dont validate me. I am forced to do what they want me to do ( for example studies ) . I dont know whats going on with me but there is this surge of emotions i can not seem to explain. I get nightmares about it and i start crying in my sleep. I told my friend about it and he laughed.I just want to feel better.

Exhausted

feeling super good! 
Hope you all too!!!😊

Happy

I love how we're inseparable 💕
Even with many downs in btwn,
We always goes up 
I'm glad we sat in the rollercoaster 
beside each other 🎢🤗

Love

Day 14 of praying. 

Affirmations

Mental health is not a destination, but a process... Feel the process... Take your time...
Seeking for help is a sign of strength and not weakness...😊

My problem is with my sister and my aunt.

My aunt loves her the most. So my aunt doesnt really know that she is taking side but she does usually.

For eg; like today, My sis and I have to work at home and yes we divided our tasks. 

The thing is
1. She usually changes the time table with an excuse while I cant
2. She has the right to make me go instead thats her day or duty WHILE I CANT.

She never listens to me but I have to listen to her.
If I dont do as she says, I become
1. The lazy
2. The ungrateful
3. The selfish

Even if I say thats not the case becoz thats her day and I also wanna have a rest & do what I like, my aunt just believe her and blames me for everything like I mentioned up there.

I also sometimes have hypertension but I never make her do my work. I believe that I have to fulfill it. I rarely have aches in my leg or foot. Even if I suffered, I never make her do my work.

My sis and my aunt like to say the word "You have to work for your family", "Why cant you help out your sis, we are family". 

In reality, they never understand me. They just want ME to underatand them. 

I can accept if I am not doing my job properly.
But I work and at the same time I am treated like I am doing nothing and got scolded for wanting to have my holidays???

Ok Fk it then.

Discrimination

Does anyone here knows about gaslighting and narcissistic people, I've got one such person in my life, it would ne good to talk to somebody about it. If you've experienced same thing. 


Narcissism

I m having mixed feeling , angry sad frustrated hurt . My friend tried to set me up with some guy even when I refused to do that . I don’t need any relationship I’m happy I don’t use anyone for tym pass still why she couldn’t understand that , without asking me she told that guy to come to my place and thn telling me this after she has done this all nd I refused again thn she said me to text this guy that I can’t meet him becz I’m busy why should I do that I didn’t call him to meet to me 
I m so angry on my frnd nd I’m so hurt by her behaviour 
I yelled at her for this have I overreacted ??? I don’t know what to do 

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