I’m currently in grade 11 last year I had to change into a new school (my actual school) because my old school only had until 10th grade. I used to hate that school bc I didn’t have any friends + I used to get bullied, but then I felt in love with a girl in my class, we slowly started to talk and get closer. But then covid came and in March we started online classes so we couldn’t see each other anymore, then the school year ended really abruptly and on September I started going to my new school (a private religious school that’s known bc all the people with a lot of money go there) I hate this school, I have no friends and what makes me feel worse is that I miss this girl I felt in love with a lot. I’m afraid we might never see each other again because after I finish high school I have plans to go to college in South Korea, I never felt this way for anyone before, I really feel like I can’t live without her specially knowing that I could be with her right now but I’m here instead. I don’t care if she doesn’t feel the same way as long as we can be friends and I can be there for her. I really do love her. She goes to a public high school school really close to where I live I could still go there next year but here comes the problem. I can’t just tell my mom I want to go to that school, I already tried to and she started to yell at me saying I’m not appreciating how much she’s paying for this. But I never asked her to. It’s not that I don’t appreciate it I just don’t need this, I don’t want it. Is that bad? Is it bad that despite coming from a pretty wealthy family I don’t care about this stuff?. Also when we were talking about this she asked me for the reason why I wanted to go t this specific school I almost started tearing up when she said that cuz I know I can’t tell her that, if she knew then she would definitely never allow it. I don’t know what to do, do you guys think it’s stupid to abandon the opportunity of going to this school just for someone? What do I tell my mom so that she allows me to go? It’s just a high school after all, idk why she cares so much. But in afraid to confront her, I’ve always been. I always want to be in peace with everyone and make everyone happy. But what about me? Just of the thought of going to that school with that girl I become happy and start to smile. I could be much happier if I could go to that school with her, I would actually study, I would actually have the motivation to do something apart from crying all the time like I do now, and I wouldnt be late to school anymore cuz I would actually want to wake up and go. This might all sound really stupid but it’s just how I feel.
always remember that your feelings matter and i will always support your decisions keep your head up. :)
thank you!💖
First of all, stop letting people bully you/why did you let them bully you last year). Have more self-respect and dont let anybody step all over you, ever again. If you cant respect yourself no one will, and I know because I used to get bullied in middle school, and its always because you make yourself available for it. Secondly, do you even have this girls number? If you don’t, please just let this go, but if you do, let me know. Thirdly, you seem like a shy, sheltered kid… break out of your mold, its about to be senior year! let loose and make new friends honey! I think you so desperately want to go back to this school over your IMAGINARY relationship with this girl, not yall’s ACTUAL relationship. Now, I don’t agree that your mom should dictate where you go to school, but when you switch schools due to bullying, why would your mother send you back to be with those same kids? I wouldn’t either, it’ll be like throwing you into the wolves unless you can grow some balls
I love you tho, dont worry im just trying to help lmao
Thank you for your advice, I’d like to clear some things up tho, I didn’t switch schools because of bullying(I used to get bullied as I said, I used to, but these last years not anymore) it was because my school ended in 10th grade therefore the school I want to go to and the school this girl goes to is a completely different school. Also I do have this girl’s phone number and we are currently talking so even if she doesn’t actually likes me back which idk we are kind of friends.
It would be much different if the situation was like you understood
There’s basically no reason why I shouldn’t go to this new school. It’s a totally new school, I could actually make friends and even if I didn’t I would at least have her + it costs barely no money to my parents. That’s why I want to go, because I know I would be much happier there. I don’t have any friends at the school I’m currently in neither do I have her + this school’s system is fucked up. Why would it be bad for me to go there?. Of course if things were like you thought that would be totally different my mom would never send me back to a school I was bullied(she never knew tho, cuz I don’t tell my parents about my real emotions and problems) and neither would I want to go back there, that’s so stupid lol. So what you said makes total sense and I would totally agree. That’s just not my situation 😅
