Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

im curently still a little bit deepresed i had a realationship with a guy and we where so close till one day everything got just so different he just moved apart he wasent the same and the fact everthing made me even sadder is everthing messed up on are 1 month together i couldent even tell him i love him you know write a cute paharagrah so my ex bf /childhood friend made things worse he went to my house and rang the ring and nobody answere till that day my parents where looking at the camereas and then my mom told me we going to his house i was scared and very sad so we went to my ex bf/childhood freind house and my mom when inside the house telling him why he was at the doorbell at 2 am and he was a snitch and told my mom i was pregnant i told my mom im not at that time i thought i was so it was a preganacy scare but im not preganant but after that my my ex bf/child hood friend his name is david by the way so david came to my house and explain every thing and my dad homeboy was there my grandma and grandpa and brother i wish i never put them in that but davids telling me to be better that you need someone that treat u better and when i was dating luhg he was a toxic person like smoke weed a hood person got guns i didnt care but then my dads homeboy was on the phone talking to luhg saying pull up and fight i was scared he came to the park down the street and at soon as my dad homeboy leaves we hear on the phone wassup nigga get out yo car and so we look at the park and seen if we seen luhg becouse at soon as my dads homeboy leaves thats what we heard on the phone so we think he saw my dads homeboy so after that i havent heard of him so like 1 week later i get 2 text him on my mom phone telling him hurry whats yo number he gave it 2 me so i called him on my gmal phone and after that 3 days later he just whould not pick up go stright to voicemail i cryed my ass off i coudent even say goodbye my last words where ill talk 2 you tmmr but theres was no tmmr so i start cutting my self and i have so much scars i just miss him so much