I’m being a complete jerk to myself. I’m lying to myself. I’m wasting time instead of doing things that I need to you. It feels so pathetic. No self discipline. A complete jerk. I feel like I’m destroying my beautiful life. Then there are my parents who are thinking I'm studying really hard where as I'm not. I feel so guilty. I have this one special person (not in a romantic way tho), that person asks me if I am doing my work but just to not get judged, I'm lying about completing my works. I feel so bad about all these. I know I can study. I have the capacity and capabilities but no I chose to fudging waste time in stupid things. 

I feel bad for lying to myself, my parents and that friend of mine

Depression

Recently i have been trying to study about her illness ie bipolar but i am not able to understand what is happening to her at the moment as we are not communicating . I want to help her . But am not able to and am neglecting my mental health for her but she doesn't care . As a person who is going through such illness she should be considerate of other people's mental health and what they might be going through.  

Did anyone watched trippling webseries and like chitvan's character❤❤

Body Positivity

Does anyone here lived in PG? I need help, please suggest how do you handle irritating roommates. I love peace and hygiene and she is opposite. Though I am adjusting, but she doesn't want to. Most of our talk is just arguments. And she don't even accept that she ever does anything wrong. When I carefully do everything right, still she finds something to fight on. I have always lived alone in my room, and this is first time I am out and have to share the room, and still I am adjusting a lot without saying anything. But this girl came and giving me just hard time. It's been 10 months, still she have problem in Little things coz of her trust issues ik. Still coz I love peace and understand I don't say anything. There are many problems in our life already, and we want peace at our place, but seems there is no home outside our home.

Frustration

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3am Thoughts

I badly want to end my life. I wanted to change and become a better person. But 'she' makes me want to just get rid of those thoughts. Whenever I smile, I laugh, the next thing that would happen is worst. I hate 'her', yeah, somehow. I don't like the way she acted and the way she treats the people at home, including me. Why can't you appreciate the little things I've done? Why won't you make me rest? Why is it that you have the right to show your emotions, feelings, and opinion and not for me? Everyone thought we're a perfect family, but I think, that never happened even before. You're right. We're not related to each other, so when I get the chance to walk away, I would immediately grab that opportunity 

Anxiety

Hey u know i am listener at an app, where we listen to people help them to overcome there mental or any problems..
I stop my work that I do there because at my condition I won't be any help to anyone there. 
But now its more than a year i am unable to handle myself.. I just sleep all day.. It feels like I just lost excitement eagerness to do anything.. I just feel like I am a burden to this world now.. 
This feeling sucks.
Have many thoughts to end life now. 
Wanna try a therapist but don't know if that's a good idea because I have to tell my parents what I am going through and they will react very badly I know.. Will beat/slap me maybe..
If I tell how many attempts to attend peace I have made at night. 
I help many people to overcome this feeling but I don't understand I am not able to do with myself the fact is its getting worse day by day.
I just say to myself tomorrow I will feel good but that tomorrow is not coming ever I feel now.
I want someone just come and help me.. Thats hard because I know like what people say at this situation and what should I do and I believe me or not I tried everything. 
Well I just feel like it's the end.. Like literally the end for me..
Maybe my part is over. 
Well I believe in God and suicide.
Both things.
People say suicide is for weak people.. I don't believe that to be honest.. I know how much guts u need to hurt yourself(tried many times but in hope that tomorrow will be better, I just stop)
U know i have seen people post about stuff that come to me i can help after some suicide but in real they are just fake they don't respond.. Make fun.. Dont even try to understand your feelings..
I know no ones owe anyone to hear his or her feelings.. But don't do this social media stuff and all that.. I am a good guy I help people and all that.. Where were u when that guy needed help.. That just makes me feel so bad.. 
I have a guy that I start listening to him when I was fine.. We exchange telegram id and now he is going through hard times he is having suicidal thoughts and I am not able to help him.. I told him many times that I am not in good shape to guide or help u.. But he is not listening if I talk rude or bad to him.. Things will get more bad for him.. 
Its hard to handle all this. 
Maybe this was my part in the world.. Maybe my part is over... 
I am really tired now.. 
I tried everything meditation yoga running and all stuff that anyone can suggest.. 
I don't know what to do now..
Do me a favor don't ask reason I don't wanna go through all that again.. If I explain someone.. I get anxiety attacks.. And vomiting every time.. 
Thanks for reading.. Wish u good luck. 



No matter what happens between you and your partner, always value him/her. Don't let your ego get in the way, if you make a mistake, try to come in terms with it and if she/he does, make them understand. Always remember, never let small misunderstandings be the reason for a breakup. Life is short. Enjoy while you can. Don't spread hatred or negativity. 

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