Vaeee @alba
I’m a disappointment and I don’t know what to do about it.
Sometimes I feel like my parents should give up on me, but sometimes I’m scared that they’ll give up on me. I’ve never get the grades that my mom proud of, usually only close to the target, so it’s still not enough. I’m terrible at communication even when I’m not nervous. I’m messy and when I clean sometimes I feel overwhelmed and end up not doing it. Recently I lost my photo album full of my childhood photo, and I search it everywhere and I can’t find it. When I told my mom about it, she said that “it’s fine, just let it go. It can’t be helped”. But I know from her tone, that she’s DEEPLY disappointed. She loves those photos and just because of my stupidity, I lost it. I can’t sleep after heard her disappointed tone. I know it’s my fault, but I’m spoiled so for years everytime I heard that tone I wish I can disappear instead of continue to become a burden and disappointment. I’m sorry for being like this, I just wanna talk…
