I’m a 20 year old depressed kid who has no idea about what’s happening with his life. So, in March 2019 I had my STD 12th boards which i failed. I thought of completing it through On-demand exams next year (2020) but that got cancelled due to Covid-19. Now i have no idea how I’m gonna clear it. From almost 2 years I’m staying at home with no idea what I’m gonna do. My parents thinks of me as a failure, they don’t say it on my face but their actions & behaviour with me has changed over this two years. They’re forcing me to get into family business which i don’t want to. I really want to study, get into a college and make a life for myself. But at the same time it feels like it’s too late now, when all my friends will be leaving college, I’ll be entering one. I know age is not a big deal but my mind is forcing me to make it a big deal. I have no one to share what’s going on with me (not even my parents) and it’s making me overthink a lot. I don’t tell anybody this but i cry every night, i just can’t stop thinking what’s going on with me. It always feels like nothing can get better now.
Try to make sure that you know what you WANT to do. Don’t let others bother you. You need to prove to your parents that you can do better than the family business. It is always good to write it down on paper or draw or make music(whatever suits u).
