If no ones talk with you spclly as a frnd also, spnd all day going alone time only, no choice what to do then?

Better find someone else who is much better...😝
And this time... instead of getting into serious relationship...just stay with close frndship....I hope this will help....and if need anything I'm always here...
Hope for the best....🤞❤️

Coz when I try to do it...this community help me alot...and some people shift to PCs to talk...and that helped me a. Lot...

Same thing is going on with me....just frustrated ....don't know what to do man.... please help me too if you find something.....

bahut bura lg rha he

Relationships

Not well

Anxiety

Has anyone got any music recommendations?

Music

This app is all about letting out the thoughts which are troubling us and there are few people who treat this app as a dating app!! They keep texting for a*x chat or to discuss po*n !! I feel like I can just smack their faces so that they will realise life is not all about s*x!!

That's why I hate Men (because of these few people judge everyone)

Frustration

Ok guys i really need ur help 
Tomorrow is my brother's birthday and I don't know how to wish him ok so he lives in another country nd our relationship is like Tom nd Jerry , personally I'm feeling bit embarrassing because Ik he gonna make fun of me but idk y still i wanna wish him duffer anyways tell me how can I just make his day 
Don't suggest me to buy or send him anything I can't do that the only thing I can do is a sending him a simple text so what to do  

Confusion

I want to know if it only me. I want some advice as well. I don't know what going on at all...I feel blank, I feel empty, it was since I was 11 or 13? I was a happy child as everyone else but then something changed when I was around 12 I used to go a shop regularly, beside the shopkeeper there was his son helping he was lot more older then me like 17? I was small I didn't know anything he used to caress my legs I felt it was weird so I used to run away and sometimes even tried to.....because of some case of harrassment I soon cam ego know what he was doing
 was wrong so I stop going there. then I came to realise I should be care full of men...
soon I realised that at some points I could hear a voice in my head, i was playing hide and seek with everyone  but everyone had gone home at some point and then I head a voice saying ' they are all gone what are you trying to do by doing this, you are so pathetic'. Ever since it was there, many time I had heard my parents fight in phone call...that voice would comfort me....I was always awake I always felt sad and distressed whenever I heard them fight, I felt something like I can't let this family break, "we have to be together"...  When I said these words in my mind...I think I saw that voice disgusted face as he said "what the point of fixing something that had already broke?" as I grew there was this time....when my father was drunk, he sexually harassed me...I felt so uncomfortable, I felt what to do ,I was totally clueless....the voice inside me kept telling me to run away...but I just froze, I felt lost, it look like he didn't remember any of this. And I didn't tell anything about it, I felt if I said anything our family will break apart. I was totally traumatised... I was guarded against any person who would harass me but because of this....something shattered inside me. I don't know if it was ever since then he gave me lot of things like tablet, headphones, laptop, I don't know if it was guilt or just fatherly love since he didn't remember much...seeing this all the voice inside me kept saying how much of a coward I was, I was a weakling.....Then I completely became a shut in...I spoke less and less and hardly kept any contact with the one I was close with, I would want to cry and scream loudly but I couldn't do it, because of me not sharing my feeling for many years whenever I try to tell about it, it feels like a hand is choking me in the neck preventing me from saying anything...the voice used to keep talking with me...it would encourage me..that voice presence make me felt comfortable and I always felt it's the only thing that gave me the feeling of care, comfort and confidence...i till now believe that voice more than anyone. As for my mother, she is a very good person...but....I now a days wonder if what she loves isn't me but a "perfect" me. She always says you should be like her or him or something, she always says about great things she has done and good grades she had bought in her class. Whenever I try to speak or refute something she immediately became angry saying I don't know anything and if she didn't guided me properly I will blame her for this...I always thought why would I do that? I never regretted the decision I took. Then one day she said to me to be "perfect", i refuted saying no one could be perfect, she then say no one is perfect because you have to become "perfect" maybe because of it I have a feeling that if I can't be perfect then I can't be anything. My mom always tries to show others what I accomplished or what I did, she sometimes even compare me with others, when we speak about this topic she always says she had never compared us with anyone and get angry saying she would never do that..I don't know if it was that way or not, it felt like I was wrong...my mom wants me to do many things...she wants me to be rich, so then she could stay in luxury....I was shocked and speechless about it but I felt this is how it should be, children should repay their parents...many times when I try to convince my feeling it somehow ended by me blaming my parents or taking my anger on them...I don't know if I am wrong or if they are wrong.... everytime it like this I feel I am wrong...I am always in wrong, many times I said sorry to many people....and I realised it always me saying sorry...but then I felt it is how it should be....I don't know..I don't know... It felt blank and empty, because of this lockdown it became more wrose, whenever I go, I see many scene of me dying and getting hurt, I feel a very weird feeling when I see blood like I want to see see it more and stain everything, I feel anxious when ever I am in a crowd of people, when my mom tries to introduce me to new people, I always feel I am out of place, I don't belong here, my voice inside me had already died,I feel emptier day by day, sometimes I put a fake smile, sometimes I try to say something it never works, I am disappointed in myself...the voice inside is very nice it comforts me whenever i feel dying it stops me, helps me up and say nice word, it say once I start working I can go far, far  away from this place..I can monthly send some money to my parents if I want....it says once I grow up I can be freed from the shackles I am bounded from. Hearing it like that it made me peacefully, I like it alone and I like my sister, she in one way or other manages to cheer me up, so she is someone i can relax with. I read some novels to make myself happy and refreshed. If anyone can give me advice it will be easy for me to go on. I want to know if I am wrong.Sorry if it doesn't make any sense. Thanks if you really read my story. I haven't said any of these things to anyone, I couldn't trust anyone whom I could share it with but since this site said I can share my feelings I wrote it all... thank you very much.

Other

Ok i won't judge you 
What is your current depression and  anxiety your going through right now 
You want someone to listen your thing right 
I'm here feel free to share 
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Depression

I'm crying so bad rn. and the reson is so simple and stupid. I just remembered my father and mother holding my hands as we walked lifting me up when I jumped up. they're both alive and happy and great but remembering these times make me cry so hard I can't even breathe. I can barely type thru my tears. I don't wanna grow up I wanna go back. I wanna hug my mom and dad and hold their hands when we walk and I wanna be happy why did I have to grow up why did they have to get older why can't time just stopped back there I see pictures from my childhood and I start crying so hard nothing makes me crumble so much I wish I just didn't remember insted or see pictures everyday is passing on and it's so sad I was just a little kid I was kid yesterday and now it's all gone and it'll keep disappearing I don't wanna go on and there's nothing I can do nothing can take the time back or stop it I'm just left with memories and pictures to cry about I cry when I get around the house we moved out of. I spent all my childhood there and just being around it hurts me so much just the thought of my dad and mom is enough. how do I stop losing my mid everytime I remember past? only thing I have is here to type it all out and never read it back to remember again. how many more essay do I have to write to get over it? except that there's nothing to be over time is just moving and I'm complaining and crying like crazy because of it. I look at my cat and realize how much he grew and he was just a kitten yesterday. I just bought him home but he's 7 years old now I just got him but I'm already so close to losing him. I just really hope I go first without losing anyone. I really can't take it if someone else or my pet is the first. I don't wanna lose them. I don't wanna get old and see everyone getting old. I just want everything to stay same. I wanna a little kid and not even thinking about future. I wanna go sleep with my dad and mom. they're still bere but I already morning about the loss of all of us. I think I'm gonna bust my eyes with how much I'm crying. does anyone gets like this too sometimes? yk losing your mind over time going on? 

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