Idk why my mom yells at me so much that from past few days i can't control my tears!


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Anxiety

I was teaching in a NGO it's been 1. 5 months the children over there are learning but last few days they have been behaving like anything . Today I got very pissed and walked off from the class . They either run away or don't concentrate on what is going I know they have not been a environment where u have to sit with full concentration but sometimes I feel that my efforts are wasted . I don't get paid for that I teach because I want to . Sometimes I feel like may be I don't teach well that's why they don't sit . Tommoro I have to call the head to inform about the same . I am very confused . I don't want to leave . I am crying but then then what about my efforts no one is benefiting from this . 

Adulting

बेनकाब निकलेंगे आज हम गली में,
कोई बेमौत मरता है आज,
तो फिर मर जाए।
🌝

Self Love

Every day I want to feel happy and grateful, but somehow reality doesn't let me do so. I am a 28-year-old woman and a divorcee, I left my job to prepare for government exams, and 3 times my exams got canceled I am still preparing for the last time and the exam is in January. I want a partner but I don't have anyone to talk to. Sometimes I feel I wish I have never left the job, in this time I could get promoted. I am afraid if I am over age for corporate jobs.

Just wanted to tell all you cuties that everything is going to be alright! Keep learning something new & growing everyday. One day you will become the best version of yourself ❤️

Compassion

Any Keralites here?

Exhausted

I had my life's first breakup earlier this January. it all ended on a very bitter note. since then we are not in contact. I controlled myself to new levels and didn't even try to check up on that person. I didn't even stalk their profile nor did I made myself weak enough to go back and look at our pictures. I am starting to forget his face too and it feels calming in a wierd way. but now the mutual friend that we had who earlier unfollowed me has sent me follow request and he (the guy) has tried to get in contact with my bestfriend, sent her a follow request. I don't know what he's upto. I don't know what does he want from me now. I feel anxious and I know very well I'm going to overthink and stress over this thing as if I didn't have enough problems to take tension for. I am anticipating the worse. 


Time doesn't heal you or your pain it teaches you to live with it.

3am Thoughts

I don't know how I fell in love with him...when we started relation i don't know how?.. where?..when?.. it will end... enter into relation is easy ..but staying is so difficult... 6 years of relation... with no of fightings ... misunderstandings... trust issues... after long journey with him ..now i feels like .... i don't know him completely... how much i try i can't understand his thoughts... words ... feelings... it's like his thoughts are out of my standard... i started feeling like alone... insecure... his behaviour makes me low... i realized that we don't have happy ending... i always thought of separating is best option for us.... but now he started ignoring me stopped talking to me... his absence killing me... i don't know why... am i used to his presence  or losing him makes me regret... am i failed understanding him.... didn't i tried my level best...or simply let the relation to end... why his absence making me mad...heartbroken ... i feels like ... go to him hug him tightly and want to cry... why???... i can't let him go ... 

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