Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

idk why im posting this its a bit weird but anyways since ive been going back to school i havent been eating like i did before. like i dont eat at school like ever, it sounds dumb but i HATE eating infront of people, i always feel like im being messy and some people once told me i eat weird…? idk so i just dont. but it started off with ‘oh ill just eat my lunch when i get home’ which i did to begin with…and then i would get too full for dinner because i would have dinner only 2 hours later. so then i would just have a small snack, then i realised i didnt really need that snack to keep me going…i stopped having breakfast in the morning and now i just eat dinner most days, this part is going to sound really dumb but it feels like after i do eat dinner or anything, i dont want to of eaten. like i want to cry after eating because i just want the food out of me?? like it dosent always feel right, i want to be sick but ive not done that before, not yet, ive proper thought about it though. i dont want to worry my parents. every time i go to eat something the first thought that comes into my head is ’ well you dont really need to eat that though do you’ it gets to the point that im not even hungry. i do still have to eat dinner everyday though… my parents arent fussed with breakfast and they think im eating lunch. they would get really worried if i stopped eating dinner coz there already worried about my weight and this kind of thing has happened in my family before ://