Idk what to do anymore, I am used to feeling sad every day you know but…sometimes it is too much. I had a mental breakdown last week when I was hugged by one of the lunch ladies, she is like a second mom to be and is really nice to me. I really needed a hug and when she hugged me I broke down. I stayed with her for a little bit before going to my class. I thought I was okay now that I cried, and I broke down in class…not even a min passed that I have sitten down and I cried. I couldn’t control it, and I ran out of class and didn’t come back until 20 min of the class were left. The students that sat next to me just stared at me and I felt very embarrassed. And I feel like I want to cry again…I want a hug from the cafeteria lady but I don’t want to bother her too much. I really hate my life, it sucks. AND I also feel second-hand embarrassment for myself for crying when she hugged me. I guess the universe loves to humiliate me.
Its okay. Sending virtual hugs ❤️ for you to cry onto.
