Idk what I feel but I’m just feeling empty not exactly sad not happy…
I don’t understand my feelings i wanna cry I wanna dance at the same time
But that’s the problem I can’t sleep i am feeling so restless
I don’t know i can’t feel anything
I tired it for an hour almost with my phone switched off and now I can’t even sit on my bed it feels like it is killing me idk what’s happening
Not regular but ya i have feel this few times
I drank almost 2 bottles of water
Ik now i might sound crazy but i completed almost a season of webseries but the feeling is the same
Trying not to
Umm okay
I’m just a simple girl very unlucky when it comes to love from family to friends and even relationship and rn I’m stuck in a relationship kind a thing idk if i can call it a relationship or not but ya ik is i want it to end but i don’t want it to end at the same time
Ya i love myself that’s why I want to end this but it’s also true that i love him and that’s why I don’t want end whatever we have
I’ll choose myself but he is the only one who understands me and if i lose him I’ll lose my best friend again and i can’t handle that but i have already lost my 1 bestfriend and now he is the only best friend i have
But I feel insecure sometimes
Bcoz he has so many female friends and post ke comments
Sometimes it feels I’m so much to him but sometimes i feel I’m burden
But how I don’t know how to talk to him also i can’t talk to him jb bhi krne jati hu m khud hi taal deti hu
And if i tell you that this is going on from almost 3 yrs
I don’t know what to do i can’t let me him also i can’t live with these insecurities
Ya i want to but i can’t i have tried we were not in contact for almost a year but still I can’t leave him
Uk i just don’t wanna talk to anyone ol i do is think about him ya i love but even I’m obsessed with him
Ya ik that
