idk if this makes a difference but im mid teens and recently ive been struggling with food, i have a list of banned foods and ive spend most of my days thinking about foods that i cant eat, its planning meals and what times of day im allowed to eat. my current limit for calories is between 500-700 im trying to go less but i end up giving up. this last week ive been staying away at a friends house and ive had to just eat all the food ive been given, no restricting. ive put on weight. ive nearly gained all the weight ive lost from restricting back. so obviously its started again. the restricting. ive been trying so hard to restrict. ive only been eating half the amounts of food given or none at all. but today i ate some cake. im not allowed to. i feel like purging over one piece of cake but ive barley eaten today and that piece of cake was full of calories. i feel like ive failed. i could of gone without it easy. i feel like a monster and im overwhelmed with guilt i could literally cry. i hate the way i look.
Heyyy sweetie, first of all, I’m SURE you’re perfect. Second, weight is JUST ANOTHER NUMBER on a weighing scale. Please please do not define yourself by something this temporary. I know it sucks, everyone goes through body insecurity. Do you wanna talk about it?
I totally do not advocate for changing yourself just to fit in society’s needs but why dont you eat as much as you want, and then go to the gym or something? I think that would be healthier.
Much much love to you. YOU’RE PERFECT.
thank you this helped, i dont eat because i feel like i would just eat everything like i have no limit like id just go and do something crazy. it feels like im out of control when eating and thats why i feel the need to restrict but thank you
Sweetie ykw, I completely understand how you feel. I used to be overweight a few years ago and everyone used to comment on me which drove me crazy. So I stopped eating and became thin. I get that I’m “fit” now but there are people who still say that I’m a stick or that I’m weak or all of that bullshit. Other than this, by not eating, I harmed myself so much I now have certain health problems. My point is that no matter how you look, people will always comment. The way you’re starving yourself will only damage you more than heal. I know its extremely hard, I totally get where you’re coming from. But my point is, can you promise me to be on a healthier diet? Or consume adequate calories per day and NOT worry about them at all? And other than this, I’m a 638291736219% sure that you’re PERFECT and you dont need to change yourself or go through what you’re going <3
