idk, i dont feel myself, i am not feeling happy. I have no friends, like not even anyone whom i can talk to normally, except my boyfriend, who’s not able to handle my problems anymore, he’s feeling low as well . ik i am expecting a lot from him, but idk, i took a drop this year to prepare for an entrance, and he got into a college and is talking to new people, and i have no one. The manager of the place where i am taking coaching, used to text me a lot, like currently the classes are going online so i have met him only once with my parents, anyways, he used to text me normally and tired being friendly, i wasn’t sure of what i should do, but then i started talking to him. Finally after somedays he said he has feelings for me and ofc i dint have any such thing for him, but i liked the fact that someone is giving me attention, because i need people to nag me text me continue and make me feel that they want to talk to me , only then i feel comfortable in talking, maybe because i have a rejection fear or whatever, that’s why i haven’t made a good friend after i got depressed in class 9, I recovered in class 11, but that changed me a hell lot, before that i had many friends and i was very happy i guess. so coming back to that sir, he used to make me feel so bsd about myself, id even know if he genuinely feel for me, but i dint want to stop talking because i felt i know atleast about someone other than my bf, who btw knows about this man, i have been clear to him about everything, he was ok with this, expect to when that sir made me feel shit about myself and fought with me. i even feared then that he wont help me with the things in class, but the fear isnt there now, its not like i only want to talk to him, its just i want to talk to someone, yesterday he said to stop talking if i dont feel anything for him, i said ok but idk i want to talk to him as a friend .
Amrita @theultimatechaos
Hey, I have the same inclinations just like you. And when I feel lonely which is obviously because I don’t have friends either, I turn to my boyfriend.
I think this sir is definitely very toxic for you. People like us with a history of mental health issues like depression, makes us very naive and easy targets for people like them… Trust me walk away from that man and try to spend time with yourself. I know it will be hard, but trust me with time it gets better.
Janmesh @janmesh
Hey if you wanna talk we can chat and here it a safe place to let it all out and just let of the sir… He’s kindof toxic to you:)
Why do you need people to talk to you? Why do you need constant reminders from people that YOU MATTER! I have been depression for more than 4 years … I have experienced it all. And you know what? Who got me out of it? No one else but ME!! I’ll tell you a little story here … I was in depression because I was about to be raped … someone kidnapped me when I was too young … tht fear never got out of me and then I lost someone really close to me. All of it, just made me so so so sad. I can’t put into words. But when I gave myself this self introspection, that the one who to go has left and the one who had to try to harm me, has tried. All of it has happened already, the shit has gone down already. Now currently, wht do I have? ME ! Under a roof, no one else but me ! Let me find a person to talk to in me. I used to stand in front of mirror and narrate some positive affirmations to myself “I am enough for me” “I am capable of everything” “I want to forget my past and move on” “I love myself” “I am alone enough to conquer the world”. And trust me, this changed a lot. And also I started writing down in a diary … so I never felt alone after that. Since then and today … it’s been five years or something now and I’m really happy in myself. I live for me, earn for me, spend on me and love me.
Moral - try to be about yourself, it’s not selfish. It’s the greatest and the best feeling in the world. You will be happy eventually when there will be no expectations from ppl.
Much love.
Same here yaar…what your are going through is same what I want to tell but in my case I have family problems too… And I dont have friends to share my feeling☹️
