Idk how to express my feelingsā¦I want to finish myself and get myself free from all the pains but at the same time I also want to make my dreams come true and live a beautiful lifeā¦i think if I was more attractive people would try to understand me,they would be there in my hard times,they would respect me,they would listen to me, they would love meā¦i hate myself for being ugly,I hate my self for not being good in study,I just hate my selfā¦my own parents say many hurtful things to me they donāt trust meā¦many a time they had said such meanful things to me which makes me cry every time whenever it came to my mindā¦I know they are fulfilling my needs not only needs but my demands alsoā¦but money isnt the only thing which I need from them but they donāt think so they think that I am the most greedy person on this universe many a times they have said to me ki ye to peso k liye kisi ke bhi sath bhaag jaegiā¦i knew that they werenāt that serious but dude it still hurtsā¦they think me as a some kind of slut who just wants money and boys and I have been bullied in my school life also for my color also and all those things have started haunting meā¦Idk how to express my feelingsā¦I want to finish myself and get myself free from all the pains but at the same time I also want to make my dreams come true and live a beautiful lifeā¦i think if I was more attractive people would try to understand me,they would be there in my hard times,they would respect me,they would listen to me, they would love meā¦i hate myself for being ugly,I hate my self for not being good in study,I just hate my selfā¦my own parents say many hurtful things to me they donāt trust meā¦many a time they had said such meanful things to me which makes me cry every time whenever it came to my mindā¦I know they are fulfilling my needs not only needs but my demands alsoā¦but money isnt the only thing which I need from them but they donāt think so they think that I am the most greedy person on this universe many a times they have said to me ki ye to peso k liye kisi ke bhi sath bhaag jaegiā¦i knew that they werenāt that serious but it hurts ā¦i have been bullied alot because of my color and those memories are also haunting meā¦there are much much much more things i want to share but i feel like crying nowā¦and people thinks taht i am am emotionaless personā¦what an ironyšā¦i dont know what will happen to meā¦will i be alive or dead?
Heyy
U can talk to me . I went through the same phase . But uk unke bolne se kuch farak nhi padta hai . Just listen and ignore them . I know it hard forgetting things what they say . But uk u believe in yourself . My parents body shame me on daily basis but ab farak nhi padta because I have grown a thick skin . U are not what they potray through their taunts. U are much more . U deserve the world . And dark skin people are the prettiest . I would die to have a dark skin and I m not even kidding . Just believe in yourself u know what you are and u are beautiful . Baaki koi samjhe na samjhe u know u are worth it . And donāt ever think about giving up . If you ever feel like it . U can talk to me I ll give my username if you wanna talk . But just believe in yourself and donāt let their taunt get in your head . U are worth it I swear . Donāt give up please :'( . Let me know if you wanna talk more and share . We ll connect on social media . I love you and u are beautiful <3
Also indian parents are emotionally unavailable and donāt know a bit about their child . Their taunts are just assumptions which they make based on the side we potray them . There is much more to us then they ll ever know . Khali thode saal aur uske baad u ll get out of toxic household I promise . And there is nothing wrong in being average student . I m a below average student :'( .
But i just canāt take it anymoreā¦I fucking feel like crying idk how to be strongā¦I am fed up of being strongā¦now I just want to sit and cry I just want to scream and tell thmstop it u are hurting meā¦but i know they will never understand because they think that I am somekind of attention seekerā¦or they will say I am doing drama and allā¦but I just canāt let them make fun of my emotions
Listen standing up for yourself is not attention seeking . Tell them u donāt like it and u want them to stop . U really canāt change them and u have to bear them until u move out . Be strong . Ignore them . Unka suno bhi mat khali pretend u are you are listening. And then share it someone you want to . And trust me Sharing helps . U just pour it out all of it and u ll feel light. But be strong please . Stand up for yourself . Please :'( donāt give up . Talk to me if you want to . I ll be there <3
You know when i tried to talk about it people didnāt believed it they were like ki tu zaada sochri haiā¦and itās not their fault they think that my parents are cool friendly and all but I know how they treat me sometimesā¦u know whatās the worst feeling in this worldā¦to be left aloneā¦and I am feeling so aloneā¦I donāt feel like eating nowā¦u know at evening i feel hungry so I asked my mother to cook for me she was like ki dekh khud Ko kitni moti ho gyi hai jb dekho khaati rhti haiā¦i try to control m hunger but i just canāt
I believe you. I m here . U are not alone . I know it is hard but try to ignore them . Donāt talk to them thoda distance maintain karo . I ll all get better I promise grow a thick skin . I know this isnāt an advice one would want but uk hum kuch nhi kar sakte haii jab we havenāt grown up a bit . And when they give you taunts tell them then and their u donāt like it and to stop it .
I m a girl . And I completely believe in you :,-)
Thatās so sweet of youā¦can we connect in any other site
Yess of course .
Where would you be comfortable?
Insta
My name is complicated u tell me yours
Okay
U have _ at the start and end
Yess
Shall I delete it from here now?
Yup
Let me tell you one thing girl even though you are beautiful you are attractive ,you are gorgeous which you already are, nobodyās gonna give You that love that care unless you give it to yourself and by reading your post I felt that that you donāt love yourself you donāt accept yourself you donāt know yourself and your reasons are valid are you get bullied in the school which makes you doubt yourselfā¦ tell me is it right to give other people tried how do you feel about yourself?
Is it right to hating yourself so much that you donāt even know how much gorgeous beautiful amazing person you areā¦?
You let people define you,
But where is your own perspective about yourself?
Do you think people will love you even though you hate yourself?
What will you do if you are another person are you willing to accept yourself?
All I wanted to say princess,
itās never about face itās never about how you look like it always about how you see yourself how you feel about yourself how much you love yourself I know situations are really messed up for you but you still think giving up on yourself is the option for you? think about your dreams the life you have dream ofā¦
You have to option either let these people define you completely let these people tell you that you are ugly you donāt worth anything or you will be the best version of yourself love yourself unconditionally respect yourself accept yourself and prove yourself with the voice of others do one thing only to you that is you became better every single day if you became a better by your perspective by the way you think by your personality you will feel beautiful every second of your life and let me tell you you are gorgeous your beautiful so donāt you dare to think that you are notā¦
Keep your head up princess because life is too short to let people define youā¦
But how can I feel good about myself when people donāt let meā¦u know now i dont know how to respect meā¦i am worthlessā¦i am just a useless peice of shit
Noā¦ donāt say these against youā¦you know if you keep listening people they will say what they think is rightā¦but does it involves your perspectiveā¦the world is ready to tell you that everything is wrong with youā¦ you got a stand for yourself and stop listening to this worldā¦ because their comes a time soon when you will regret that why you keep listening to this world instead of yourselfā¦self love doesnāt happen overnight it will take time during this you will he broken as well as feel weakā¦but you have to keep going and then one day you will find youā¦
