I wish this pandemic to be over soon. I wanna go back to my normal life and eat ice cream

COVID-19

Your daily reminder: if no one told you they loved you today, I love you. I care for you. I always will :) if you never need anything do not be afraid to ask. Hugs and kisses for all <3 

Anyone lonely?

Lonely

it's lonely in hostel life. it's my last year in college. but i have no friends till now neither in college nor hostel. everyone enjoying their this phase of life and im struggling to manage myself as a normal being rather than an awkward which I'm in person. wish i had friends here. this time would be bearable but i am not able to make friends. 

I wanna meet myself with someone else's point of view once..!!

Exhausted

its really hurt when you love someone even after breakup from 3 he dont even love you for once 

One Sided Love

I have so much on my mind.. and when i can't keep it contained anymore I always end up saying TOO much and look crazy.. I always end up making the most toxic cocktail. I don't know why I do this to myself.. I know how to love myself. But the devil sends his best for me... And he knows how to hurt me.. but God will turn this for good. My fear of abandonment and getting my heart broken is what drives me to this destructive person... I noticed when I am single and on my own I am the greatest version... But every single time I've fallen in love . It's with the same type of person... Narcissists... I'm an empath... So these are the ones that I fall in love with.. but it's not worth it... These vampires drained me... I guess i go to the drugs and alcohol because I don't understand how someone could paint a picture and then tear it up as if it never meant shit.. the pain that comes with loving someone and they leave you brutally... It's a pain that I am done going through... If only they knew the reason I was always a mess when we were together is the result of the manipulation and emotional abuse... And I get so angry.... Because i didn't deserve that.... I will now move on from this relationship... I am not your emotional punching bag... And I don't hate you... Or blame you for the way you are... But I will not let you treat me like dirt... And the only way for me to get sober and my head on straight is to stop playing these games... It hurts to much .. it's not necessary you that Im so upset. It's the repeated cycle . I really thought you were different.. ❤️‍🩹💔 😣 time to heal and finally overcome and let go of the chains that hold me down, and not go back... I will not go back..... The hatred I feel for the things that control me is so strong.. I won't fail ... ❤️ 

Addiction

Been feeling super anxious lately, reflecting on my past and realizing how much my childhood fucked me up. I feel as though I need to constantly be chasing happiness even when I am happy if that makes sense. I feel like I'm never doing enough or am good enough for everyone around me. I know I should focus on myself but then I feel like I'm being selfish. 

Anxiety

What motivates you?


For me it's my inner voice!!

Whenever I'm worried or afraid and giving up my inner voice just speaks

Oye kanna you worked hard till now by avoiding negativity, believing your goals, understanding the situations but at the time when everyone is giving upon you at least you should believe in yourself because you know  all your struggles and pain that you have gone through !!! Kanna people are gonna say whatever they wanna say even if you do something right or wrong just like the story of a father, a son and a donkey !!!!

So kanna avoid those thoughts and do whatever you wanna do because i know better than anyone how precious you are!!!

I don't know if I will ever give up or not but for now i keep going !!!

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