I wish i could fast forward my birthday. This year, I don’t have anyone to spend it with. I wonder when i became this lonely. I have a boyfriend who lives in a different city but he won’t try enough to come here on that day. I don’t blame him. I wouldn’t want to spend my birthday with me as well. But i can’t help feeling really sad and I can’t help feeling like there’s nobody there beside me. My closest friend has moved to a different city and the other two friends who i thought would spend my birthday with me, is going travelling. They’ll return two days after my birthday. I feel so lonely. I had suicidal thoughts on 26th Feb. So the next day I took myself on a self date and purchased a lot of books. But it’s like a constant race against this crippling loneliness and it somehow always catches up. Sorry for being this dramatic if anyone’s reading this.
Happy Birthday Dear !!! the best I can see from whatever you said is that all of your closest friends wanted and have intentions to spend time with you on this day. Intension and will is the most important thing a person can show to you and I am sure all of them mean it whatever they are feeling for you. Go dear and be with yourself on your birthday spend time whatever you like to do or atleast just be with nature of any form and listen to your favorite songs. 😘😘😘
Thank you. Your words were really kind and they helped a lot. :)♥️