I wish dying should be easier but it was difficult but living was far more difficult than that. Things never happen like we want them to be, everything is which seems so easy is actually too complex. Every day just turns out to be a curse although I want it to full me with new hopes but I only got dissappoint and hurt everytime.
In my part I only got pain and betrayaI from ppl and all this adds more toxic thought in my head , seriously I am too clueless to understand that what I have done to deserve all this, sometimes I just wish that everyone just get disappear or atleast I should ,I wish to never existed.
The anxiety never leaves me alone, I have lost everything there’s not a slight hope and positivity left in me that can keep me alive.
I have forgot to smile and express myself and I have just stopped communicating with ppl .All the toxic thought somehow made me to isolate myself and cut ties from everyone else but still nothing actually changed, the voices inside my head don’t stop troubling me it killed me several times and provoke me to harm me myself to the extreme that I started to regret everything.
I am so done with life and living with two faced monsters who consider themselves as human. No one care whether I live or die no one even wants me so it’s better to rest forever in peace.
Thanx alot for giving ur valuable time to read abt my miserable self and concerning abt me . I’m thankful that u put so much of efforts to help me it seriously means alot thanx for showing u care I seriously want this . I gonna keep everything in mind n I gonna try my best to improve n stay strong . I gonna keep in mind to never skip everything u adviced me to do seriously I want to help me as well n after reading what u suggested only made me think that u believe in me that I can overcome all this so I don’t want to let u down. I would feel very good to express n talk to u as well… Seriously it means alot that u showed so much of care and concern to reach help to me…
I can try to answer them honestly …
I think I gonna be ok don’t worry abt me.
At first I can but now I don’t seem confident enough to talk abt it n I seriously don’t want to trouble u more
I will think abt it… thanx for concerning abt me so much it really means alot having someone by ur side who keeps on motivating u provide strength I only have heard abt it but now I’m actually feeling it . It’s feel lil good tho… Thanx
Idk I don’t want to talk to anyone only conversation which I needed the most is with my self …I need to clear things out with me just give me some time . I hope u don’t mind I respect u I’m really very sorry if I dissappointed u in anyway.
Yaa I am I wish the same for you as well
