I was so excited about life going into November. My birthday was around the corner, holidays, New Years, and my graduation date in December. Just before all of that happened my girlfriend broke up with me and I feel so alone in life. Everything was so perfect and in a moment it all stopped. I felt so empty and alone on my birthday. The holidays alone are looking grim. I graduate in a week but I don’t feel proud of myself. She’s not going to be there loving me and smiling at me while telling me how happy she is I get to take my next steps in life.
It just doesn’t seem fair in my head. She was with me through so many hardships in college, but for my final moment she won’t be there and that really sucks. All I want is to feel loved so I have the strength to keep pursing my dreams.
But why do I not have the same burning desire to follow my dreams myself? Why can’t I be proud of myself for enduring those hard times? I’ve been so depressed these past couple of weeks and my suicidal thoughts are increasingly frequent. Even though I know I’m going to graduate school and I’ll be following my dreams I don’t feel the desire to continue. I just feel empty inside.
Nishita @nishi
Hey buddy!!! relax, give yourself some time. I know you are going through a rough phase but for a girl who leaves, you can’t betray your family and friends. Have you consult her before seeing “THE DREAM” of yours; no right! then why are you going insane for her? As per you, you want to feel loved then you have your parents who love you more than anything go to them.
People who commit suicide are not brave enough to face the challenge so don’t even think about it. You did lots of hard work for your degree don’t let it go in vain.
I hope very soon you’ll find someone who loves you more than that girl.🤞🤞🤞
