I was molested when i was very young and I'm 18 now and I still didn't tell my parents about it.. Its hunting me everytime and I'm emotionally exhausted rn.. idk anymore

Have you thought about seeing a psychologist/therapist/head help person? I know what you're going through. When I was 8 I was assaulted. My parents don't know. But I've told my friends and they're helping me through it. The best advice i have is to tell people 

Exhausted

when I was 5 or 6 years old I was sexually assaulted by my cousin brother it left me with a lot of trauma I did confess to my parents after 15 years but they dint believe me and said boys are like that maybe they dint do it wantedly and my father believed him over me it fuckes me up every time my parents talk to him or help him and he still behaves like a fucking pervert around me I avoid situations where I can meet them but it so traumatizing it ruined my life forever about the choices I make with men or my love life, low self-esteem, extreme anxiety it ruined my childhood for me i was not safe at my own house i felt like sharing this today because my dad was helping him to get a match to get married i questioned him after everything you are helping him he gaslighted me saying I'm the bad person and I lie because why would someone remember things when they are 6 years old??? and I have to stay out of it because he has good nature to help others and I don't. sometimes I feel like the only person we go to comfort is our parents but when they fuckup I guess it's just you alone with yourself.

Child Abuse

I went for my first physical therapy appointment today and the doctor put a bunch of tape on my back to help with posture
Which wouldn’t have been a problem except for he pulled up my shirt and my binder practically up to my shoulders and kept it there for like five minutes
I have trauma due to being sexually manipulated by a man on Omegle and one of my triggers is having to take my clothes off in any way for other people especially men.
I was already trying to hold in a full blown panic attack. And then, as he moved to get another strip of tape, his fucking hand brushed my ass.
Of course, it was probably an accident and he probably didn’t even notice, but jesus fucking christ if I was having trouble staying calm before…
I was trying my best not to hyperventilate into the pillow I was laying facedown on.
It was bad enough that there were several times during the session where he had to practically lay on top of me and put his face uncomfortably close to mine.
I know it’s my fault but I’m just…not okay after that.

Physical Health

Physical touch is my love language and yet my biggest fear. 

Other

Okay, I never thought I would share this. But here I am.
It happened like 1-2 years ago. I went to my cousin's house with my parents. We enjoyed ourselves a lot had a great time there. My cousin( boy) and I are close to each other since childhood. In the afternoon, we ( me and him) were reading comics and being tired I fell asleep. Later I felt someone's hand on my body. I for sure knew it was him. I froze and wasn't able to do something ( which I regret till now also .. Should have punched him on his face ). thanks to my younger brother(sibling), who came in time . Well, he didn't know what happen.I have not told this to anyone not even my parents ..Now for some XYZ reason , he is gonna stay at our house . Tell me what to do ?? I know im gonna traumatised after looking at his face. 

Harassment

My cousin just told me that I should tell my girl my living situation and I’m just scared to do it, because of are argument Saturday and yeah

3am Thoughts

Now adays i think im gonna blow up
You see i am have been sexually harassed by u guise the partner of my aunt who lives next door to us my mom has always been busy and not there it started when i was 8 i was alone and he was drunk and suddenly told me that he will teach me how to kiss so he... Kissed me hahaha and told me to open my mouth i ran downstairs with my aunt and didn't say a thing cause i was 8 that time no one taught me anything about that and so he continued to do so even in my high school day he would let me sit on his lap and what saddened me was that it always happened INFRONT of my aunt and she will do NOTHING and discomfort is always visible in my face but still smiling as i was a coward who cant fight and he would touch my hip and touch it and touch it hahahahaha im going crazy remembering it and one time i woke up in the night and i always sleep downwards (my chest facing the bed as i have bad experience in that too also sexually harassed by the previous boyfriend of my mother where he will touch my b**bs when i sleep when i was young guess he was jealous not having one) so back to it i woke up him on top of me his TINY ASS PEEPEE(still in pants) on the top of my ass and he was kissing me on the checks or i dunno AHAHAHAHHA typing this wants me to go next door and maybe m*rd*r him hahahahahaha help me hahahaha im going crazy and ontop of that no one knows these exept me and unto this day he pretends he has never done that dunno maybe perks of being a pedo hahahaha i dunno what to do so i came here hoping for some advise

Depression

is it bad my brother touches me se8ually 

I am feeling down. I find out my brother having a girlfriend had sex with my cousin.

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