I wanted to open up about this for a long time but I never fell the need to. I always kept it within myself fearing judgement of others. But now is the time. If you can understand my situation and provide me some solutions, I will be ever grateful.
It’s been one year since my colleges closed and I’m taking online classes from home for a year now.
My dad, I cant even judge his character,. Sometimes he is very caring, and sometimes he shouts a lot and abuses me ,my mom and my sister for no reason.
He is very very short tempered and has always been .I can never tell anything to my dad, he doesn’t care about what I’m doing, how I’m feeling, he just want me to do best in studies.
My mom is very caring but she also short tempered very much, same for my sister. Hence I never have an option of opening up to them. Whenever I tell them anything, they scold me or use it against me.
As I’m in home, my sister fights with me every day and she pinches me hits me for every silliest reason. They hit me if I don’t do anything as per their liking. Am a major now and i still feel treated like a child. No one respects me or my freedom. And my body is full of red marks from my sister hitting me. Mind you, she is my younger sister. She fully knows that i hate people touching me and that i wont hit back.my father and my mom fight at least once a week and create a complete ruckus in the home. The fight are extremely abusive physically and mentally. My parents make me and my sister watch it(we cant even be in our room doing our work).whenever my parents fight it ends with my mom end up apologizing even if its my dads fault. My dad punishes us 3(me my mom, and my sister) by asking us to do 100 squats.Everytime.Once my parents were fighting on phone and my dad asked us to do 100squats and send the video recording via WhatsApp. It do be like that. My parents fight everywhere(even my relatives know this), I know that they wont take divorce and but their fight are extremely abusive and sick.
i cannot tell u every time that I’ve done that(squats) how sore my leg feels for the next couple of days.
My mom is no better.She fights with my dad every often and then goes back to him like nothing happened.She manipulates us and makes us respect our dad despite his behavior.
i hate being in my house and feel abused every day by my family. I feel trapped and i feel like i have no freedom. I also feel myself getting irritated very soon and feel like I’m chained in my house. After lockdown i never spoke much with my college friends’ and have developed trust issues.
I feel sad and lonely.
I know for a fact that if my college reopens and if i go back to my college hostel, I won’t face this issue. But that seems far from reality and as the days progresses(as covid cases are increasing) i find the situation unbearable. I feel abused by my family.
Suggestions are welcome!
dhvani @dhvanee
I’m very sorry for what you’re going through. You mustn’t take this anymore. If you seek comfort in any of your relatives, who you said know about all that has been happening in your house, report this issue to them. You’re an adult too, and you’ve been seeing this torture happen regularly in your family, so take immediate action, because you don’t deserve this disrespectful behaviour and abuse. And if it gets serious, you might even have to take legal action, because you don’t have to bear with this treatment. If it’s possible, try to shift to some different place, maybe to a relative or friend’s house if they understand you, or to a rented apartment. But you must act immediately.
