I want to share how I am feeling these days and what’s actually going on in my life. I am having constant anxiety and worrying a lot these days. My mental health is degrading day by day but I can’t do nothing about it. At this phase of my life nothing is alright. People say life is full of ups and downs. But where the ups? All I can see is anger, fear, stress, depression and a lot of problems. My family is having financial problem and I can’t help them as i am still studying I have tried several times to search for online jobs but nothing worked most of them were frauds. So I can’t help my family or give them a little support. I am also confused with my career I don’t know what should I do to get settled soon. I belong from a very small town where there is no any such better scopes or opportunities, one has to go out in order to have a better lifestyle. I also wanted to go abroad and I actually had many dreams but nothing seems to be possible. I just don’t know from where and how to start. Next is my relationship problems. I have been in a relationship from past 5 years. The first 2 and hlf years everything was fine but then he had to move to another place and from that time onwards he started to take me for granted. He only comes to me if he needs s**. He never ever cares about me and even if I cry he disconnect his calls or stops talking to me. He also stalks andother girls all the time in social media. I told him I want to end this but then again he comes back with some rubbish excuses and makes a fool out of me. I am frustrated I am tired of all this bullshits happening to me. Sometimes I feel God has abandoned me. He stopped listening to my prayers.