I want to die
I have no desire to live anymore
Zak Puckett @ztothephour
I recognize the feeling. But you came here. Im willing to think your looking to feel differently. Am i safe to assume, in some regards, what triggered this by the tags you chose?
I having a hard time focusing on living. There is no one who understands me and even if I have one he misunderstood me and now ignoring me as I’m a stranger to him. I have no desire to live cause already I’m different from others and also no anchor to hold on to live my life.
Zak Puckett @ztothephour
I had a mental break that i did not expect. Im fairly certain that if i didnt have that unconditional responsibility to my daughter, it would have been way harder to get grounded. And im understating how hard that was… i cant compare the issuss themselves, im in the states and im slowly gathering cultural differences from india(im assuming, seems majority on here). I can relate to the being misunderstood, being understood woikd be nice, sure, but the thoughts and opinions peolle told me were minenhad a larger effect than i could imagine. Its difficult now to remember how it felt in the moment 2 years ago, and i still have a very good idea, but i know it was more desperate than my memory
I don’t know what’s there for me now. It’s being difficult more and more to focus and live. Why can’t I be happy? I’m cursed to live like this I thing.
Zak Puckett @ztothephour
Its hard. What i have to say may come across as nice words because i want to help, which in part, is true, but i really stand by this as my personal strategy im still tryjng to figure out if it works, i think so, im still cleaning up past bs, but it does keepnme going.
I got fed up with everybody else making up ttheir own reality and facts on how things were, i said f*** it, i will do the same thjng but better. Mind you i dont know anyone who could say that and believe them. But half my country changed the definition of racism and didn’t tell anyone, wo apparently it is a valid strategy. I really had to revisit what words meant to me. Ivr never had faith or related to hippie talk (f*ckerz may have been right, just ridiculous spokespersons). I understood the importance of “hope” and it was a hell of a thing to find. But why bother with people right? I got far enough to know intelligent people are working on real problems out of real virtue, that had to be enough.
Then i realized i dont have any jnformed opinions or any clearly defined principles to to live by… i was 33 at the time
Anonymous @broken_silence
I think the same way and have been for weeks
I have been facing this from months. In between of days, sometimes I forget about it but it comes back to me that I have no desire to live.
Anonymous @broken_silence
I’ve had these thoughts throughout my life (not when I was little). They come and they go, but they haven’t left in a while
same
