I wanna cry for living in this type of a life. When my everything is depended on someone else starting from food, clothes, education EVERYTHING. I hate this feeling. The feeling where i know i am living & surviving becuz of someone else. I am gratefull for it but i don't like it.
Every single day is a reminder of that for me. So many act of some certain people tells me how i am surviving. I HATE IT. I WANNA RUN AWAY. I WANNA RUN AWAY FROM THIS LIFE, THE PEOPLE AROUND ME, EVERYTHING I HAVE. I WANNA GOOOOOOOO FARRRRRRR FARRRRRRRRR FARRRRR AWAY FROM THIS FEELING & THIS FREAKING LIFE.
bruh i just hate it😭😞

Thank you. I thought i am alone feeling like that shit. I hope we both can survive through this life & get ourselves a better version of it by our own hard work.

I can feel you as i am going through that same shit but believe in yourself work hard soo hard that you don't have to depend upon someone else for very little things. Till then hang on

Life

I want to flee. 
where nobady knows me.

Frustration

I have always felt like i am a failure...good for nothing...i have always veen very lazy  ...i tried a lot of times to get rid of it but m not able to...i m in college...still dont know where m leading to...m not even passing in all the subjects...and coming from a place like kerala where almost all my family members and relatives are very much educated...i feel like a looser...even my parents thinks i can just say but cant do anything...i have never loved myself...i do cry at nights feeling helpless...cant remember anyone to whom I can go and vent my feelings out...but because of all this i have also developed anger issues...its getting more frustrating by each passing day...everyother day i would decide to change but i don't know why but m not able to do so 

Mental Health

 Hi guys new on this platform .. i found it on insta reels .. i just don't know how to feel right now. I feel like wasting time n not doing anything productive .. i feel empty and sad .. its like all my friends left me and i had a breakup from a 3 year long rln one year ago .. i feel like every thought is suffocating me still.. my bestie left me without telling me why ..

Anxiety

Does anybody else feel like something is wrong with them? I’ve been to 3 counsellors and they all said that nothing is wrong with me. But that can’t be possible, there is no way I feel all of this without having something wrong with me, right? Having episodes where I can’t leave my room for days. Moods switching back and forth. Zoning out constantly. Giving someone new in my life constant attention for a week or more but then it instantly goes. Not being able to stick to more than one hobby. Having to make people constantly happy, with how I look, dress and act. Breaking down every night because I couldn’t get that one math question right. I get it, people have it way worse, I know that. I’m not saying that they don’t but surely something isn’t right in my head, surely I need something, some kind of help. I don’t think this is normal, I hope it’s not because I’m really struggling to deal with it.

Mental Illness

Everything is going good
But deep down i wanna run away ghost everyone
Move to a new city restart and change my aesthetics too
Is it ok
Cause I'm surrounded with some toxic ass humans who are quite manipulative and controlling 
So i wanna run away

3am Thoughts

I'm so restless rn I woke up with headache and feeling dizzy but I was fine moodwise 
Slowly it became hard to do everything coz idk I feel like everything is moving slow I can't do anything I can't meditate or focus maybe I'll go for run but can u suggest me something helpful 🥺

Stress

I have this obsession with germs and dirt. I try my best to stop my self from washing my hands again and again. But I anyway do that everytime. I do this shit over and over again for about 20 times in a day. It sounds funny to people because it's just the visible things for them but ocd is alot more than this. It's the inability to stop yourself from thinking about the same thing again and again and again until you feel a sense of satisfaction. It's about following a pattern in everyday routine and being utterly sad and annoyed if not being able to do so. It's about wanting to think about all the things i did in certain steps and telling myself that I'm clean at every fuckin' step. It takes away my entire day and even if I got work I will continue to think about it. It's a fear from new things and routine. It's about being compelled to do something knowing that it's not normal. It's about carrying on a compulsive behaviour despite of the willingness to not do it. And when you have it since childhood it just strengthens with time and interferes with your work, relationships and everyday life. It feels like ocd is running the life for me and controlling me more and more. I really don't know what to do with it. 

Hey!  
It's been a good year for me, i lost some extra kgs, i scored really good marks in my boards and got medals and all. I must say life is going pretty well. I just don't know why but i feel really empty inside. I don't know but i have came to that stage of life where i don't have many friends, just 1 and that too busy all the time. I sometimes cry at night but i don't understand why??..  I try to focus a lott on studiea but sometimes i loose it all.  I sometimes feel that no one adores me like everyone hates my around. I am not a kind of person who talks to everyone. I feel empty i feel that if someone will hug me anytime i would cry. I have always been a really sensitive person. 
Whenever i am happy i am feeling good then something bad happens nd it ruins everything all the time. Just so tired of this shitt.. I don't know what to do..  Literally had no one to talk to . It's soo exhausting some timesss godd... 

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