I think im starting to hate friend, idk she is so annoying sometimes.
Always look down on me and making fun of me.
Idk whats wrong with her. And i dont care 
She is always like she has everything and try to make me feel im dumb, i have no knowledge, she is pretty and i dont deserve anythg  etccc.
Its like soo disturbing.

Take my advice and dump her. She doesn't deserve you.

Unfriend and then unbother, always remember it.

Friends

I have not been keeping up lately.

I have never experienced things like this at some point I think I am overthinking but I don't know. I have a friend whom I really loved. My friend used to tell me about all her problems, I was always there to assist her, in fact she used to tell me about her relationship too. I never revolted and paid heed to her. For the past year, I was in love with her but I confessed my feelings to her recently and things have got very weird. It seems like she has started avoiding me and treats me as a burden.She acts cold with me and tries to seculde me , even if she doesn't do these things I have started taking note of it and it looks like she is doing it .My other friends will always choose her over me .It is quite painful but I don't say anything.Even after confessing my feelings she did not for once helped me to get out of the loop.Looks like she took me for granted , I was nothing but a helper to her .I don't know its just very difficult to get over her.I find reasons to hate her but you can't hate the person who love the most.Lonelinees has engulfed me .



Lonely

i just feel lost.

i'm a 16yo kid who spends most of his time playing video games with friends online or just sitting in my room with my thoughts since i don't really have friends around where i live.

about 2 and a half years ago i lived a few states from where i am now and i was best friends with a girl my age who i developed feelings for, and at one point thought she may have feelings for me. this girl also has mild autism, and the worst this really burdens her with is terrible social skills, and she often distanced herself from others at school. i had a similar attitude but it was just the fact that i was just very antisocial. i was one of the only people she talked passionately to about stuff she liked, and it made me happy no matter how strange she was. seeing this girl so invested in stuff she liked always put a smile on my face. she started doing things that made me think she might have feelings for me: touching my leg or shoulder/looking into my eyes while talking to me, sitting close to me in school bleachers/cafeteria, feeling her watching me if i was incredibly invested in something, play with my hands/hair. and after a while i started developing feelings for her, and wondered if my thoughts about her loving me in that way were true. 

and then i ended up moving and never got to tell her how i felt. it left me with so much guilt and bad thoughts because i cared about her so much, she was one of those people i would give my life for. there is so much i would give just to have one last conversation with her.

all i'm looking for is some type of advice from anyone, or just someone to talk to about this. if you have any type of thoughts on this, please let me know!

**EDIT**:  one thing i should have mentioned in the original post is that i DO have contact with a friend of mine who still lives near her. i’ve talked to her about this a few times but i don’t want to burden her with it that much and see what advice i can get from people i don’t know. she made the offer to tell her i had feelings for her for me, and so i let her do it. when she told me how it went, she said that she had smiled and laughed a little. i never really count that as “me telling her” because i didn’t tell her face to face, nor did it come from me. i’ve always wanted those words to come from me but it came to a point where i just wanted her to know.

Depression

Need suggestions!!
I had an argument with a very close friend of mine n it has upset us both.. n we both feel that the other one is wrong!! 
I'm unable to talk to her as I haven't been able to process everything till now! 
N she's really angry now!!

Anxiety

Today I come to share something I'm proud of doing. Two days ago on the 14th, the same day I confessed to my crush a month ago, I texted my ex-best friend, the one I hadn't talk to at all for 3 years, the one I had been the closest to for 7 years, the one who knew me since I was 6, I was closer to her than my family and we are very close , but she was different, no matter what, it was going to be fine because she was there. I sent her a really long message apologizing for everything and thanking her for so much more, and to think I was so scared I almost didn't do it... We went from talking every single day 24/7 at school and then through video calls during the week, falling asleep with each other on the phone, hanging out at her house every weekend to seeing each other every day but saying nothing, like strangers, like we never met.  I was expecting the worst that day but the best happens, she also apologizes and said she'd love to be friends again, that even if it doesn't seem like it I'm very important to her, that we might have fought a lot but we shared the most beautiful moments as well, and what broke me, that she was so proud of me and that despite not talking all these years she has been secretly looking out for me and constantly thinking about us. I thought I was the only one, I was so scared, I even hated her for a while but I for once did the right thing and I'm proud of myself for everything I've done the past two months. Now we are back to being friends, talking all the time like we used to do, I feel like I have everything I've ever wanted, I'm back to those beautiful times. So what I want to say to anyone watching this is, just say "sorry".  Go talk to who you wish you had back, communication is the key to everything, say things when you feel them, don't hold back like I did once thinking it was for the best but the worst ended up happening. Argue with people if what they did hurt you, apologize if somone¡s hurt even if you don't know why, just say those magic words; " I'm sorry". When hatred blinds and you can't find anything to feel better just say I'm sorry. That's all it takes. Swallow your ego and your pride for a second and just do as your heart says you've got nothing to lose, just turn the page and make it right. It's never too late, not yet.
When you're hurt, try this word, It's so easy just say "sorry".

I am in my early 40s (male), I left home when I was 15 and I have been on my own since. about 16 years I met my best friend Kim (woman). I love her to bits and I consider her my family. She has been with me through hard times and I too have stood with her through trying times. 

She is lesbian and that allowed to trust that we were meant to be friends and nothing else and we have both always respected that boundary.  Two years ago we both realised that we actually loved each other more than we thought and we slept together. This happened a couple of times until I stopped it.  She asked me not to contact her because she could not deal with the emotions involved. 

I have been suffering for two years, I miss her so much. I miss my friend and family.  I don't know if I should contact her and try to repair our friendship. I understand how hurt she must have been by my actions. 

This affects my days, my work. I am losing self-esteem and i feel useless most of the times. I am not looking for sympathy or sex. I just want my friend back so much. She means a lot to me. I don't know what to do.


Relationships

I made some jokes on my friend (we often do make a lot of jokes on eachother) and now she just don't wanna talk to me.. She told me she felt insulted and found me annoying and I apologised for both cause i dont wanna lose a friend like her... Does this mean I had taken our friendship for granted or its just my behaviour that I should really change...
Also when do you find someone annoying? 

Confusion

yk that moment in your life when you realize you’ll always be in that one persons shadow… god it hurts so much when that one person is your best friend. i’ve said it before and ill say it again shes stunning, everyone compliments her and no one bats an eye at me. i put in so much effort and people just always pick her, looks wise or just friends wise. we got in an argument today and she used my loneliness as an insult against me, it hurt so much but we both said stuff we don’t mean so i don’t hold it against her. But like damn. I opened up to her about how its so hard for me to make friends and shit and she said she’d help me out but it feels bad knowing i need help in the first place. When we were arguing, she said smth abt me having no friends and then said her plans for the weeknd and asked for mine. Just stood there hiding my pain cuz i genuinely had no plans, and the fact her plans were w our friends hurts even more. They’d all pick her over me, they’re just so much closer to her no matter how hard i try. Genuinely no one cares abt me lol. im just tired of constantly comparing myself to her, sometimes i feel like a bitch for wanting to hate her but i literally cannot handle it anymore. shes my closest friend, she honestly has it all, looks, friends, a boyfriend, happy. i want that:(…

Jealous

So i kinda just wanted to get this out there because i just want to get some opinions on it

So over a year ago i met this girl online (for the sake of this im going to call her charlie) on roblox.  we got each others contacts and we soon became really close.  we were ibfs.  we'd have so many little jokes together and we would tease each other about everything.  we had nicknames for each other and we'd always flirt together as a joke. we'd always go to each other with our problems and there was nothing that we couldnt talk to each other about.  but as i was getting good friends with her all of my other friends around me started letting go until i only had her left. i dont have friends from school or anything like that, im not too good with friends and charlie made me feel really loved and like she cared so i never really minded.  She was by FAR obviously the most important person in my life, in a way i felt like i was only living for her, i cared about her more than anything in the world.  She had loads of friends and i mean LOADS.  but i felt like she always put me first.  

But like with any friendships there are going to be problems we didnt fight or argue much.  Me and her were both pretty chill. But id always felt like whenever she'd like achieve something. i'd hype her up so much, but when id done something she wouldnt do the same for me.  But tbh i didn't really care about that.  We had jokes where she'd get to be the best but i wouldnt. i guess i was ok with that too.  she deserved the hype and the confidence.  I cant even tell you how close we were even though we were ibfs i knew her so well, we would talk everyday some nights id stay up with her until like 4am and we'd have the best times

Kinda mid jan this year (2021) me and Charlie became even closer (if that was even possible).  I ended up with a crush on her and i didnt know what to do.  Me and her started playing minecraft together and she made me cute little things and she'd say some of the sweetest things to me.  She would ss our cuter convos and put them on her close friends story on insta. I thought she might like me back but i wasnt really sure.  I just pushed all the feelings down because i didnt want to ruin anything.  We were so close and id never been so close to anybody before in my life and i didnt want to mess it up by liking her.  She made me feel so happy.  She meant the absolute world to me.

A few days ago she started being off with me.  She was making me feel really bad about myself.  I think she might of been joking but it did hurt.  We then had a small argument (we didnt usually have arguments so it did make me quite upset) and i decided i wasnt going to talk to her until she messaged me first because i always apologise even though its never really my fault i just feel bad.  Later on that day i joined our minecraft world and she'd written some stuff about me on the walls of the house she had made for me.  Not nice stuff it was all secrets id trusted her with and her saying what she really thought of them, it was stuff like oh your such a baby for crying over that.  your such a sad person u need to grow up.  I was honestly shocked and i was like so upset i didnt really get why she would say that and it hurt me like ALOT it felt like she was attacking me.

 I obviously messaged her about it saying how it was all wrong.  I wrote her a massive paragraph literally APOLAGISING about it even though its not really something that could of been my fault i just got 'k' as a reply.  I messaged her saying sorry about literally getting upset about and she still put 'k'.  I didnt know how to fix it.  i asked her what was up or what id done and she said nothing.  she told me to go away i didnt want to, it just pissed her off more and she said she didnt want to be friends no more, not out of rage just in general.  It made me so upset because she meant the world to me and we'd known each other for so long.  and in the year and a half we'd been besties for she'd never said anything like that to me before.  and like i had nobody else to ask or talk to about it.

After that i wrote her more paragraphs the next day.  I literally just said everything i was thinking.  It was mostly about that fact that she didnt care about me because she could just leave me so easily.  She might of told me the truth but im not sure.  she said she liked me but the only way to get over me was to hate me and that was why she was doing this.  I obviously told her i liked her back so she didnt have to.  after talking to her all that day as friends i asked her if she wanted to be together.  she said idk.  I decided not to go back to that and asked her if we could just be like friends again.  She said maybe.  That friendship only lasted less than a day.

she was being really off again and was purposely saying things to try and hurt me.  we obvi had another argument and she said shes changed and her opinions about me have also changed.  She said she dosent like me and she dosent want to be friends.  She said she dosent really care about me anymore.  I didnt know how to react.  Tbh i just started crying again.  

I agreed to her goodbye and said something along the lines of 'i hope ur life gets better and i hope ur happy again one day'  she said there was no point in saying that bc she dosent care about me so shes not going to remember.  That one hurt.  Like alot bc i think it was what i wanted her to say to me. But it was just a reminder that she didnt care about me.  She then said how she was going to kill herself the night before and i was trying to comfort her but she just told me to go away and she brought back that idc were not friends and so idc what u think.  Like im worried about her but she dosent really want my help. 

Im honestly so upset about it.  We were so close and we have so many memories and its just like it feels like my fault and im not sure if i should just give up on her and try and move on or if i should keep trying.  It was such a good friendship.  The best one ive ever had in my whole life.  I really wanted us to last as friends but idk, what do you guys think bc i could really do with some help on this bc its not like i have any friends to ask about it :/


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