Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I think I need some cheering up. Hindi ko alam kung saan ba talaga or ano ba talaga yung “cheering up” na 'yan. Maybe dahil naiwan ako? To be honest hindi naman yung trip yung habol ko roon e. What I was after was the memories. Just like right now. I’m want this specific meal I dont have it they got it. Or hindi 'yon ang rason. The memories? I dont think memories are the real reason why I’m kinda sulking right now. Maybe because I am just so tired being left around. I’m tired being this ignorant girl trying to fit in. Sometimes I feel nostalgic but I think I’m just thinking of those times upon what will happen kung sakali man na I really did fit in. 'Cause honestly, I didn’t. I want to leave but I dont want to be this selfish human being leaving her behind. But then again, those were adventures, memories, and maybe a part of youth. Sabi nga nila you only live once pero paano kung may mga bagay na pumipigil sayo? I want to live but everyday is like a struggle kumbaga it is like you’re chained. Where you don’t know how to let out your feelings so you keep them locked away