I think I have a crush on one of my close friends. I recognize myself as straight. But lately I have started having doubts. I am terrified and confused. I donโt know what to do. I have searched the internet to help find a way to recognize my sexual orientation but everything gave me mixed answers. I am fighting with myself everyday.
I relate to you on another level because I went through this some time back. And I did tell my friend, because I wanted to be honest about it. She took it very sportingly and thanked me for telling her, saying she appreciated my courage to tell her. However, I never wanted any reciprocation so nothing beyond that. It eventually moved beyond just having a crush to me falling deeply in love with her. She was there for me throughout, helping me deal with it and talk about it. I slowly started working on it, because I knew I had to get over her some day and I did finally. Took me some time, it was painful, heartbreaking, sad, but I found my way out.
I know itโs confusing, trying to figure out your sexuality and everything. I hope you take your time, and figure this out. Sending love and support :))))
Were you able to figure it out ?