I think I get over him but everytime I look into those beautiful eyes I go on a roller coaster ride that leads to outer space


Bas roller coaster pe chalte samay seat belt baandh lena. Nahi to feelings ke nadi me wapas dub jaoge.

Crush

my boyfriend and i have been for over 2 years everything was lke blossoming flower in a beautiful garden but now days, he is ignoring me i dnt even know what to do how to work out relation . cause problems come and goes in live i know but seeing me on and suddenly disappearing what is that i mean if he also doesnt share the problem them how am i suppose to know his feelings he better like to hide it and i stay quite . like how am i alone going to suffer alone to make things goes in right way . i cannot think properly sleep properly or do anything without telling him now he says that i should not share my feelings anymore and i should try to hide it inside myself . like who am i suppose to tell my friend left me a year ago now he is also like that i mean i dnt why he is being so mean to me . i didnt even do anything alll i did was i loved him and share my feelings like i am bored , lazy, like we havenot been in physical kinda stuff at all but every time he ignore i try myself not to be negative kinda but distract myself by thinking positive . but he never understand that i am only trying to workout all by my own. i want to make our relation like it was in the past

Boyfriend

How long it takes to get over someone completely? The guy I liked is dating someone now I wanna get over him but it’s hard but I need to get over him now

3am Thoughts

A month ago I left my boyfriend who I’ve been with for almost 8 years. It was my choice to leave, but when I did, I found out that he was talking to his ex. 
I wanted to leave him for so many reasons before I found out about her, but... now that I know I was easily replaced, my head is completely fucked up. Why didn’t he want me? What did I do wrong? Why does no one love me or care about me?

I moved back home, and now when I cry my own mom ignores me and leaves the room just like he did. Am I expecting people to care about me too much? Is this life? If so, I don’t want it. It hurts too much 

Lonely

my crush is my ex boyfriend,,we dated in 2020 and then he broke up w me,,and i haven't moved on since then,,and i still like him,,but he likes my bestfriend now,,and he is very rude to  me,,i feel so upset that he calls my bestfriend the whole night and never calls or texts me and also leaves meon seen,,i don't know what to do,,and my bestfriend i think she likes him back

So I met this one guy online about three years ago in a game. At first I didn't think anything special about it and just played the game but then he started talking to me more and more on the console messeges and at night we would talk trought voice chat at night. First it was just normal talk but then he started to make me feel special. At some point he started asking me for pictures of me or wanted to have my number but I was a private person. I never ever gave that to anyone and I also thought I was very ugly. But he kept asking and saying how special I was to him so I ended up sending him a picture after we like talked for 3 months. When he saw my picture he called me very beautifull and made me feel more special. After that we continued to play the game together daily and talk to each other daily. After a while he wanted me to video call, which I said no to at first. But i gave into it eventually ofcourse. I was so so shy At the begining, but he was so sweet and kind to me that I felt at ease after a while. We started video calling every day on WhatsApp. Sharing goodmornings, pictures and goodnights. But at some point I felt insecure cuz we couldn't meet and he kept saying he didn't know if we could meet since it's complicated for him and for me. So after a while I tried to cut ties with him last year cuz I was insecure 

I felt so heartbroken, I cried and I cried. We were still friends in the game so I avoided that for a while. But eventually I couldn't forget him and reached out to him again after a few months. First we started playing in the game and we were eventually talking normaly then we connected again. We started talking daily again and he made me feel special again and made me fall for him all over again. 

But lately he replies later, we don't video call much at all and when we do he's sometimes too tired to talk from work he says or he's not in the mood and I feel like I need to beg to have a video call with him. It makes me feel like a nag
So then I tend to back off a bit and wait for him to send me a messege first.
A few weeks ago I told him I really want to be with him and meet him. He said it was impossible between us cuz of his family and mine. I told him I don't care but it all just made me insecure 

From that point on I just kept feeling more anxies. These past few days even more, which I told him. He told me he really really likes me, that he's not good with talking about feelings, that its complicated to meet and doesn't know if that will ever happen, he thinks he's too old for me and wants me to enjoy life, I told him I don't care about that. 

He also finds it annoying when I say don't leave when he wants to go sleep
Since two days ago I feel so crappy, I cry every morning and night, I try acting normal but I don't know how. 
He knows I have had a hard life and that its not getting any better, that's why i think he only talks to me cuz he feels sorry for me
I dont have friends, I talk and act normal to people at my work, at college etc, but I don't feel connected to any of them. I feel like I cant trust them, they will leave eventually so I take my distance to keep me from feeling broken as in the past 

But with him it's different. He's the first person I ever loved so badly, the first person who was kind and treated me like I was special and made me feel alive. The first person I trusted and shared first things with. He gave me a bit more self confidence
Hes the only guy who I would do anything for and the only person who I reply to within mins. He's someone who I have clinged on too much, I think about him all day and even wait for him te messege or call me, when he doesn't I feel so sad and the hard part is when he does call me or talk with me, I feel very happy and think it will change but it doesn't. I still feel anxies. He then goes back eventually to the late replies and short messeges, i feel like he backs away when I tell him I feel insecure, I feel like I annoy him or make him feel bad when I tell him I miss him or feel sad. 
He's a good guy with a great and kind heart

I just don't know what to do anymore, I hate my personality, I'm even crying when I write this. I feel like an emotional mess

Anxiety

all thesse nights i was up worrying abt him and he was in love wit a girl who dont even like him. he wasted a whole relationship on some bs. he had me crying worried and feeling drained. i liked him so much and i did so much to make him happy and i get this in return? he a whole bitch who cant keep a relationship bc hes scared. he needs to grow up

I dont really feel good... I haven't been talking to my bf properly for weeks. He had his exams so it was fine with me but even after his exams have finished he doesnt talk to me properly (like u know the long chats). Every day he says he will talk n then leaves me on delivered and i keep waiting. This gets me to overthink situations and question myself and every time i tell him how i feel he tells me that i make him feel like a bad person. Even if i ask him to talk to me he will feel that i have too much expectations. But things dont work that day. I love him so much and really feel upset when there isn't minimum communication between us. It feels like it doesn't even bother him and here it is making me so upset.

Overthinking

Just in my feelings… 

I finally broke the cycle of constant misery.. at first I told myself “ i mentally checked out a long time ago” which is why I finally had the courage to leave… this is not my first heart break.. but this is my first misery… I will never be able to understand what I really want but I know that this is whats best. Why am I dreading this decision all of a sudden? Why cant I just make it easier on myself.. I miss our memories .. its always the dang memories. I want to get over this soon .. what if I made the wrong decision? No… putting myself first is not the wrong decision. What if I never get him back ? .. then he wasnt mine to keep… Im so lost. Im so upset at myself. Im so .. disappointed. Disappointed in myself? Or you…. 

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