I think I am a manipulator and which made me ruin the social circle and It’s also because I was a codependent I am so ashamed of my past self coping mechanism denial and blacking out and so on
Your past coping mechanism and your codependency is something people need to accept it. Its fine sometimes it takes time to get over what we developed because of past events and its just matter of time. Yeah maybe it can ruin few things but sometimes you have to get through this things to learn something better! Self independent is surely one of the best satisfying things but codependency at certain cases doesnt come less, so dont worry, cope up with it and be a better version of yourself. Surely it will take hella time but i guess you’ll get over it. First stage of starting this is to accept what negatives you have. You already started with it ig. So you are on right path. Dont worry!
Yes I have accepted it and become little better than my past me but the friends who are around me with my past knowledge keeps on misunderstanding and doing drama and i can’t confront it or say that I am not like that and the connection between them and me is very low these days and idk what to do
If i would have been infront of you, surely i would have acted the same way. If you’ll clear what you have in your mind atleast to your friends then you might feel better. Its on them whether to act maturely on what you are going through, or act childish n keep getting angry n judgy.
But I can’t and I don’t know what to say it’s really hard for to talk about these things to them especially the ones I blabbered things to at first time and the ones who they told to
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It’s never too late to change if you hv realised you were wrong…